Stacey's blog: "Lyrics"

Conflictions always inside of me Who am I suppose to be? Two halves playing the role Compulsions, I cant control I see myself, no longer as real With this loss I feel A whole life of corruption I am my own destruction I'm screaming out I'm reaching out I need some answers to find myself I'm holding out I'm falling out I deny the reality I've lost my identity Two people inside of me The other I can't see Who the hell am I suppose to be? Inside the voices I can hear Only myself, I see in the mirror These cuts that bleed on the outside Is from the other that I hide The urge is taking over Who's inside of me? Who am I to be? inherited from my mother neurotic is the other I'm hearing the voices their making my choices A whole life of corruption I am my own destruction Im screaming out Im reaching out I need some answers to find myself Im holding out Im falling out I deny the reality I've lost my identity Im screaming out to find the answers Im reaching out to find myself Im holding out denying the reality Im falling out Lost my identity By:Stacey Forrester (Thanks to the other for inspiration)

I've been played and cheated broke my trust, without a doubt The time has come to say goodbye no more lies I started to open up my eyes to see clearly, inside, the real you the pain now, is starting to fade away no holding on today I wont look back now wont shed no tears I wont fight back now wont even try to care I started to open up my eyes to see clearly, inside the real you the love now is starting to fade away no holding on today I wont look back now wont hold onto fears I wont fight back now wont even try to care Sick of the lies and the games I see so clearly my chance to walk away walk away from the lies and the games my chance to walk away walk away from you You played me, for all you could lost the game moved on, and moved along could you move on from me you and her, now your free I started to open up my eyes to see clearly, inside, the real you the pain now, is starting to fade away no holding on today By:SF-

Your making it harder, making it hurt binding me, pushing my face in the dirt Pushing harder with a force, ripping my skirt Body tense,heart pounding and fully alert Your making it harder, making it hurt Screaming in silence, pain on the outside Closing my eyes, The harder I cried In my mind, somewhere I try and hide Stripped,and abused, more ropes you tied Soul shattered, and scorned I died Your making it harder, making it hurt Binding me, As my lips taste the dirt Pushing harder with a force, off goes my skirt Body tense, heart pounding I'm alert Your making it harder, making it hurt No longer screaming, pain on the inside Closing my eyes, breathless, I sighed In my mind, no longer a place to hide Stripped and used, the ropes you untied Soul shattered, and scorned I died You made it harder, you made it hurt Binded me, and buried me in the dirt Pushed hard with a force, flames upon my skirt Body limp, heart still pounding and fully alert You made it hard, you made it hurt One last breath as you bury me in the dirt By: Stacey Forrester ( copywritten/ dont steal!)

I'm sitting here alone thinking to my self there's no one else left to blame I have to wake up and realize my shame No one told me love was tough You were right for me Where did I go wrong I have to make it right even if it turns out rough Lived my days wondering why Had so much happen Had nowhere to turn Found you deep inside my heart Held onto the past Pushed you further away I wish I knew how to make this right I should have given you my all right from the start Tore my heart in two kept the broken and threw the other away is it too late to ask for maybe? is it too late to tell you I love you baby? I can only try my best Try to make you see there is another side of me So I can finally put my tears to rest try to make you believe there is another world inside of me No one ever told me the world was cruel I had to find out for myself Fight along the way just to survive another day I found myself, inside of you your love gave me that fuel I tried so hard to find the reasons why love was tough and why life is rough none of them were because of you Everything has changed inside of me I need one more chance to show myself to you I've made my choice, and found the reasons that choice, was because of you I didn't mean to drag you down I was down myself and needed you down with me now I'm up again and life is so dull with out you baby is it too late to ask for maybe? is it too late to say I love you baby? I broke myself down to pieces rearranged them over again I found that heart I tore in two you held the other half I put it back together and rearranged the pieces I am asking to rearrange the me and you I need you in my life your what makes me feel alive is it too late to ask for maybe? is it too late to say I love you baby? We can have it all I jumped and made the change please just help me rearrange the pieces to me and you its not too late baby to say its through there can still be a me and you By:Stacey Forrester

Disintegrate! I cant contemplate Pain in sorrow, words without meaning Solitude within, nothing seems to withstand I've had enough, going to make one last stand Im fucking tired of these lies, all is said and done I dont have to deal with this shit, tolerance for none Back the fuck off, and leave me here to stay You people are pathetic, just get the fuck away Fuck you Your a liar so Im fucking through your a whore I bet you fucked him too Your a bitch I bet you he fucking knew I am pissed so fuck you and fuck you too Fuck all of you Vehemence! Take a second glance Anger in depth, Tears without sound An Inner promotion, the whore scars I cant fucking deal, crucify all and lock the bars Im sick of all this bullshit, shove it up your ass Im better then this, remember this and make it last Get the fuck away, and let me be alone You people are pathetic, slit your wrist with stone Fuck you Your a liar so Im fucking through your a whore I bet you fucked him too Your a bitch I bet you he fucking knew I am pissed so fuck you and fuck you too Fuck all of you Anger! Say what you will Hate in motion, vengeance will come Within devotion, the bitch bleeds I've heard enough, Sick of your leads Im deaf to your cries, slut your denied Be superficial, your the one who fucking lied Step the fuck back, and give me space You are pathetic, I see your deceitful face Fuck you Your a liar so Im fucking through your a whore I bet you fucked him too Your a bitch I bet you he fucking knew I am pissed so fuck you and fuck you too Fuck all of you By:Stacey Forrester (copywritten) dont steal!

You came into my life, like a shadow that comes out from the dark Displaying love, showing me again what it is to trust Now I’m mending myself of the pain, I fell in love Then I made up my mind, I’m not wasting no more time You left me alone, without a care, but for yourself You can’t even begin to imagine the pain I feel. You hurt me, just like everyone else. I can’t pretend everything’s going to be all right I can’t believe all the bullshit lies I can’t see myself through one more night I can’t stop the pain, and the heart that dies I can’t hold onto something out of sight I can only walk away and say my goodbyes You walked out of my life, with a few tears and a smile Displaying love, showing me again what it is to feel Now I’m dying from the pain, I lost all of my love Then I made up my mind, I’m not wasting my time You left me alone, without a second chance You can’t even begin to imagine the pain I feel You hurt me, just like everyone else I can’t pretend that everything is going to be ok I can’t believe all the empty answers in your eyes I can’t see myself through another darkened day I can’t stop the pain, and the heart that cries I can’t hold onto something, that just walked away I can only hang up, and say my goodbyes Written 2-10-08 Dont rip or copy this is my work. Stacey

Kick back the day of joy Darkness broadens to the day Say what you will Do what you want the hatred is ever choking holds you down so tight all you can do to gasp eyes ever widening I am sorry for confiding I am your epitaph Hate me for loving and hate me for trying Hate me for feeling and hate me for wanting Hate me for leaving and hate me for dying Hate me just to hate Seize your feelings Blackness is your comfort Believe what you will Become all your lies The madness is ever tightening pushes you down so hard all you can do to speak lips never fully opening I am sorry for denying I am your epitaph Hate me for choosing and hate me for needing Hate me for loosing and hate me for believing Hate me for confusing and hate me for absuing Hate me just to hate Hate me for loving and hate me for trying Hate me for feeling and hate me for wanting Hate me for leaving and hate me for dying Hate me just to hate I am your epitaph By:Stacey Forrester (Copywritten/dont steal!)

You keep on pushing pushing me away not holding back now no, I wont cry tears of pain Something that Im use to I know them all too well and each day I love you the same you keep on pushing giving me the blame you keep on accusing your stress is my fame you keep on running your love is my shame you keep on pushing and I stay the same You keep on pulling Pulling me to stay No, I wont hold back my tears I'm not gonna run away no more Something that Im use to I've done it all to many times and each day I fight harder to stay yet you you keep on pushing giving me the blame you keep on accusing your stress is my fame you keep on running your love is my shame you keep on pushing and I stay the same And I pull you closer Closer to me begging you to stay No, I wont hold back my love Something, I've always done before and each day I try harder please dont go away I'm still the same By:Stacey Forrester (copywritten/dont steal!)

Memories are fading Washed away with the tide The heart is barely beating Somehow it got lost inside My hope has perished with the light Drowned with a faith that has died I thought I had it all I lost my hope I lost my faith I had them yesterday I had my love I had it all Then you went away... Smiles are over-rated Forced to hide the tears My thoughts are complicated Pushed away for too many years In time, my hope has finally faded my faith is gone, and I'm the only one who cares... I thought I had it all I lost my hope I lost my faith I had them yesterday I had my love I had it all Then you went away... There's nothing left to say It hurts, but I will survive Life... it's just meant this way I'm lucky enough to be alive I had hope... only yesterday then you stayed away... By:Stacey Forrester (Copywritten/Dont Steal!)

As the light in my life starts to fade all I see are distant memories I remember a time of love a time of need pain beating down upon more pain only the bitter ones survive My heart so gone now, blasted away the reasons I once knew, forgotten my soul has been set ablaze engulfed by eternal flame As demons tear me apart, I shall not fear The answers I had, are no longer there My life has come close to an end I remember you holding me tight pushing air into my lungs telling me to fight you said "remember my name as nova Ill be the ember inside, your burning flame Ill be your everything, growing stronger with time Screaming to me, your life cannot end Where there is light, Ill be your darkness In your darkness, Ill be your burning light Please let me have one more moment, your life cannot end" As I gazed up I remember the tears that bled from my eyes A gaze that had grown tired with memories of past a chaotic past thats rains deep inside it roars in crashing with the tide My heart and soul once so beautiful elegant and so sincerely deep where the most lovely music played now broken are the strings upon my heart I see the raging hate for what it is Why live in a life made this way We live to end are days reborn to die again black and so very empty Life is this way as in heaven, and the hell below My time has come, and now its set its my time to go I am weak I am tired and I am no longer scared My life has come close to an end I am letting go now my body slowly fading out My voice so small now, so fragile and weak A body crumbling in your fingertips The demons are calling my name now with repetitive chants, and phantom voices Caught in their flames I blow away Yet the novas voice I hear calling to stay I am dancing now where I no longer have a name in a hell where my life is now a burning flame Caught in a world, my soul is bound in this there are no answers to be found my life has come to an end By:Stacey Forrester (Copywritten/dont steal!)