gothgirlpunk's blog: "Life/love/hate/death"

As my back bleeds because me wings have grown as my heart bleed for love to show as my ring finger bleed for are love to be true as my feet bleed to prove how far I would go to be with you as my brain bleed when I think about you when you are not here when I think about you at night wishing you can be here bleeding for your love and bleeding because of fear fear of dieing fear of crying fear of losing you to some one else fear of us not seeing each other every night the fear of you not holding me tight is why I bleed at night from my heart I love you my dear I want to be your every thing I wait for a kiss on the check I wait to see you again I wait for every thing at the end I bleed for your love I bleed from my heart I bleed when I need I lost my mom I lost a lot I don’t want to lose you because you are my every thing I am glad I meet you I don’t want to hurt or harm I want wings to fly over the sky so I can watch over every thing so I don’t have to have hard times in life but you with me make the hard times worth wild because of you I find what’s the truth I find out I can get help for you I love you dear you are close to my heart I wish I can see you be for I sleep tonight I know I can but I can wish all night I love you Hun I love you more I love you like I never did be for

i got the most wonderfull feeling in my whole life when was here i had the best feeling in my whole life and time i want him back in my arms he was the best gift i could get in my life i love when he hold me and was with me i never felt that b4 and i love him for that i lov him in all ways i never want to lose him at all

i have a bf i trying to vist him around x mas but i dont think he wants me any more he dont talk about me dont like talking to me i am hopeing he still loves me but i dont think he does fine all day and now he wont text me back i think i am ready to give up i just want love but no one can give it to me intill he wants me i be sad i would do any thing for him but i dont think he cares but any ways how is your fuckin day mine was great i love him and i dont think he say that and he has he single need a girl and shit i think i should give up what happen to the nice juggalo that i meet that loves me he went bye bye i want him back but what ever he lives in a diff state and i trying to go to his maybe i should give up i am going cuz my heart is hurting cuz i love him and he dont love me what ever intill i know he reallly loves me or answer i guess i am single cuz y stay if he wont talk i love him but what ever justin i love u get that throught your head plz

why when you are in love you have to have sex or dating to have sex or just friends have to have sex why dont guy get it now a day that woman might not want just that they want some thing real they want some one that wont leave if any thing happens if you think about it why guys have to be close hearted they think about one thing and its not the woman its about their dick guys need to think about woman so they can plz their dick but they dont that why some of us never do it i love some one i hope they love me cuz he is the best he is sick he seam not to want to hurt me at all but i just dont know any more i dont know if i should date or stay single or just date some one that lives by me go with my heart or no go with my mind or no lose all or lose none but lose 3 and keep one i dont know what i should do any thing i should just stay single

as i cut and bleed do you ever think of me when i ask you for help dont you see i need you when i cry dont you just want to hold me when i died are you going to be the 1st one to welcome me when i had my son was you by my side mommy dearest why did you have to die leave me with all this pain with no one to love me why couldnt you show me the way how to be a mom why couldnt you see me get married why do i cry and think about you all the time are you in me in some sort of way are you my heart or are you my brain if you are my lunch i will be a shame but why cant i talk to you like i norm can why havent you come talk to me since i had my kid are you mad at me that i had one are you watching over me and him am i ever going to find some or am i going to be alone mommy come back to me as i sit here and cry mommy i love you and i am wondering why mommy help me out in my time of need mommy why did you go at this time of need why cant i think with out thinking about you one min plz tell poppy i love him and gramma dolly to and aunt di too make the come around me more tell jason i will date him when i die cuz he was alway the good looking stud i miss all of you the most can you plz help me in my time of need i just want you all to love me do not be made at the things i do or say i just want to be love when i pass away i hope you talk to me soon in my dreams i know how to chanle in and out but no one has come to me here down on earth i will stay just love me till i see you all again bye for now my family and friends

my life be not cool adoupted mom pass had a kid but the funnyest thing i notice in life is that you cry for every thing i dont know what its about with that but ya i rather be dead to see who would come who are my true friend or be born again to see if my life would of been diff i been in and out of bf and gf that i swear that i had one to many then i should of for only being my age but my mom pass away cuz of cancer but its hard to deal with all this alone so if you know any one in my state single around my age tell me hit me up i am a icp fan so ya if you like icp talk to me i dont bite inless ask to