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I decided I'm going to be dumping Carla...Which is normal for me..someone gets a little too close and I push them away. Since this will be another notch in my dumping record. That makes about...2 in the last year. She needs somebody who has has a hell of a lot more money. I cant keep up with her due to some disabilities.. I'm not happy with her and the relationship is not going anywhere. I don't feel comfortable around her anymore. Which means I'm going to be single and very unavailable. Its something I have to do. I kinda prefer being alone right now. I cant count on anyone anymore for the fact is I just cant stand how some people are. And it annoys me to high hell heaven. I'm tired of the lies and the BS that comes with a relationship. And my trust level has hit a all time low. And use you out of their own hormones. I wish people can grow up.

Today one of the family dogs died today. Our Brittany Spaniel. this isn't the first time a couple of days ago she had a episode and it took at least a couple of hours to calm her down and clean her up. She was in pan howling. After briefly taking her to the vet their was nothing they could do. For the longest time she was grow in a tumor but if it was caught early and if We had over 400 dollars for the operation Chuck would have taken her in. its been a stressful day for the family as he had to take Heart in. And he couldn't stand by watching her go on in pain and struggle to walk. He made the decision it was time to let her go. I know it wasn't a easy decision but he made it. l I know now is she is in a better place now. Their is a photo of Heart in my picts. I will miss Heart...

I was on a date with Carla that was complete disaster. Last minute dates never work. It was the worst date I was ever on. I don't blame her she was fantastic but I really blaming myself. The kiss was meaningless and awful and I felt so tired walking all over gods creation finding her .... We walked for hours and I do mean hours around the mall. We went to her favorite stores Victoria Secrets and Fredrick's . She was looking for a corset. I never had my back give out like that.I was so out of breath, and I feel so out of shape. Age among other things are catching up with me.I don't think were going to be doing this again any time soon.

I went to the doctors for a checkup...I found out my blood pressure is borderline of being too high....It's just acting up a little bit. My mother had thyroid cancer. My grandmother had problems with it too. And now I'm having problems. For those who are unfamiliar with it. The thyroid controls alot of your energy, your moods and who you are a person really. I was diagnosed not too long ago for having a case of By polar disorder. I am able to function normally but damn this is driving me nuts. And starting soon my medication gets changed to a more cheaper drug..And the doctor was not happy about my weight. This is a new doctor for me. She handed me a calorie sheet that made me feel ....so much worse. And to top it all off I have to get a blood test before I go back in 2 weeks. And I'm planning to get some counseling done when I can . At the end of the month I usually get a little stressed. This Wednesday I am going to meet my landlords to sign and renew my lease. not happy about paying more rent right now....I'll let Chuck haggle. Hes good a that. The family has to get new license plates for the vehicles. Two of them dont work. Its repair stuff but why the hell Keep them and eventually fix them when you can trade it in.II have argued with some common sense with this problem. And I have a date Saturday night I'm looking forward too. Ive been with this group before but I'm a little nervous. I wasn't the same person I was when I was with them. I have a vehicle now and more importantly someone to go with. I felt a little out of place. Everyone was attached and I couldn't get ....my girl at the time to come with me. Over the weekend I lost a tooth on the left side and it was cracked...I've not have been experiencing any pain over it. My Bears got creamed ..again. All in all its going to be a crazy week.

October 1st update Fate Images http://atemages.fotopic.net/ Adult Images Being your slave, Come here, Feeling lucky tonight? Have a Happy Fetish Halloween, Leashed, Let me bite you, Sincere Thanks, Where’s yours? Computer Graphics 2007 Dragons tag, Fairy b&w, Happy Columbus Day, Happy Halloween, Pirate lady, Stained Glass framed Fairy Angel, Wicca elf, Ying Yang Coming in November! Record albums, Thanksgiving images, More Adult images and Portfolio work. Deep Space One http://deepspaceone.fotopic.net/ All New Wallpapers! Only 1024X768 Wallpapers are in these sections! Sci-Fi Wallpapers Section 1 Babylon Five-Battlestar Galactica Babylon Five “All Alone in the Night”, Babylon Five “Looking into the Future”, Babylon Five “Meeting the Devil”, Babylon Five “Midnight on the Firing Line”, Babylon Five “Sleeping in Light”, Babylon Five “The Grey Council”, Battlestar Galactica “Downloaded”, Battlestar Galactica “Lay Down your Burdens”, Battlestar Galactica “Lost Planet of the Gods”, Battlestar Galactica “Occupation”, Battlestar Galactica “Savior from the Skies”, Battlestar Galactica “Surrender”, Battlestar Galactica “Taking a Break from all your Worries” Battlestar Galactica will return in January Doctor Who will return early next year Sci-Fi Wallpapers Section 3 Firefly-Heroes Firefly “Double Crossed”, Firefly “Trash”, Heroes “Alive”, Heroes “Evolution of a Cockroach”, Heroes “Family Advice”, Heroes “Flying Man”, Heroes “God Help Us All”, Heroes “Making a deal with the Devil”, Heroes “Working Dispute” Stargate Atlantis will return next month Sci-Fi Wallpapers Section 5 Stargate SG-1 Abyss, Babylon, Beneath the Surface, Collateral Damage, Fail Safe, Fallen, Jack and Sam, Memento, Menace, Moebius, Revisions, The Changeling, The Lost City, The Quest, There But for the Grace of God, Tin Man, Torchwood Wallpapers will return early next year Coming in November! New Section! Buck Rodgers and the 25th Century, New Character Images of Heroes and Stargate Atlantis, New Wallpapers of Babylon Five, Firefly, Heroes, Stargate SG-1 and Stargate Atlantis Tentatively Coming Soon Flash Gordon, The Bionic Woman, and The X-Files Next Update: November 1st On Fate images I was getting really lightheaded for a number of days…due to the changing weather I felt like crap. So when it came to work on this site I felt sick to my stomach. Plus I had a few computer problems …and I was somewhat busy with personal matters… I know excuses excuses. I have right to moan and bitch. I did a number of images on the fly really. I worked on what I could but I do know I want to do better. I was planning to do record albums this month but I will be doing it next month for sure. I hate putting things off because it’s not fair really. When you expect something there people get upset. Then I feel bad. When I did Columbus Day its surprises me how many people didn’t know it was actually the Vikings that discovered the western world. And cavemen that just migrated when the Earth’s mammals were young and became Native Americans. Who would have thought they discovered it first. Columbus discovered North America on a lark really and found The Bahamas not the U.S. But we celebrate and take a day off from it anyway. For me that never made any damn sense. So as a image I used his ships and a map of the Bahamas to make a point that whatever you were taught from an outdated 1950’s textbook was wrong. Maybe we should have a Viking day. And Columbus was a homosexual.. nothing wrong with that. Just something they forgot to tell you. Oh well It isn’t called north or south Columbus Land. He didn’t prove the earth was flat that was acknowledged after his death. It wasn’t flat to begin with. This is what happens when too many stupid people are in charge that didn’t know any better. On Deep Space One I wanted to concentrate more on wallpapers this month on this gallery. With Babylon Five I did a couple wallpapers of the latest Direct to DVD adventure the Lost Tales. Overall I thought the stories were OK…but its something I want to get my hands on. I miss the show. I thought it was educational, very epic, had some good humor, and I felt it really taught me something about choices and consequences. Those are the stories I like to read or watch. That’s part of life really... . With the ratings falling on BSG I feel it’s about time that the show has ended. It was good drama with some interesting 9/11 overtones but I feel entertainment should not be all that doom and gloomy. Personally I’m tired of that kind of entertainment. I watch shows more with content and humor. Like the Fubar Mumm’s I need that stress release really. There are shows I would love to watch but I don’t have the time like House for example. Cannot squeeze enough time to watch it. Now I’m giving Battlestar Galactica a break it would be nice that will be coming back for its last season next year. The TV movie will be here at the end of the year. Heroes returns this month with a few new wallpapers based on the new season and its first year. Alive should make woman happy as a shirtless Peter Petrelli is handcuffed inside a trailer. Also with Heroes is a wallpaper using Comic book templates and their second season publicity pictures. Which was quite fun actually. Heroes might have a wallpaper section of its own in the future. I don’t want people thumbing through 100 wallpapers or more. I might have to divide Doctor Who again because of that reason. I have four TV movies and another season of that show coming so yeah I need to break it up. I loved Comic books when I was growing up. And I feel it’s a great art form that’s misunderstood just being for kids only. Essentially even film is constructed like a comic book. Its larger than life. And I think Heroes is an extension of that. It’s done in a way it doesn’t insult the intelligence and integrity of its audience. People who are extraordinary with real problems. Stargate SG-1 should be wrapping up next month in its now new section. I wanted to finish this up with a limited number next month. Next month more character images are in the works as well as a new section. I feel caught up here and I find their were sections that are more complete now. And I can now wean myself off of it. . What really makes motivates me is the viewer. What you guys like or view the most. Comments and Questions always welcome.

Too all those who have wished me a Happy Birthday thank you again. I really appreciate it. It wasn’t a bad day at all. Tommorrow to celebrate some more I have a day off from work .I haven’t had one for over a year > Carla wanted to see me as soon as possible shes had family over so getting away is a problem right now. I think one of the reasons I came here is everyone is so cool and everyone pretty much on my MySpace account died except for one. I think my only grudge today Chuck’s (who is my housemate) daughter showed up last night and didn’t leave until 3pm. I didn’t know about her till Friday. They were supposed to leave first thing in the morning. I don’t mind having her daughter over but I’m afraid of their noisy dog Lucy. OMG what a yelper. I ended up watching Hot Fuzz. today ...It was hysterical. I so want know Shaun of the dead and this movie after this.And I caught the Great Escape on TV ..Great movie. At this time the Bears have had it and more than likely losing to the Cowboys. I got Heroes on DVD today Wooohoo and It was Family Guys best. The Star Wars stuff was just great.. I was so full and laughing so hard LOL Thinking this was not a good idea lol and the Mumms for once were entertaining. Loaded some new stuff in my stash….Mostly video’s Had a great time.

I just heard from a friend hes getting a divorce with his wife. They were my neighbors and very good people. I'm obviously happy that they are going to remain friends. They have no kids. I'm kinda finding myself scared of the whole divorce issue. The divorce ratio was around at one point maybe 2O-30 percent now more or less 60 percent. Speaking from experience nobody wins in these things. Its not like I'm afraid of a relationship because of this I just dont want to see anyone get hurt. I'm usually the one afraid to say anything without the risk of offending someone I really like. If she takes it the wrong way she has every right to hit me really hard. Any part of the body is fair play. I dont think I know anyone that's married anymore.. I witnessed first hand how bad things just go south after a divorce through my folks. Maybe one couple but offline not anyone I can recall. its either divorced maybe also a bit bitter after it or widowed. Tell you the truth when I found out what was going on it was pretty ugly. I knew what my father was doing but I did not realize how bad he was doing it. I didnt know he was seeing this woman and planning to leave my Mom. My Mom had a few guy friends and I didn't see anything going on. Cancer is not something you can catch and I just think its pretty low for someone to give up on someone they should care about when they are sick. I have a sense of morality and ethics and I would feel lower than dirt if I did that. On a side note as always I have been exercising at least once a day now. Twice on weekends. Also I have been turning into quite a clean freak lately. Actually it does feel good after I'm all done with the dishes so I can relax. I sacrificed any time I wanted to take for camping to work on painting the house. its getting too cold to even think of camping right now. I miss the outdoors and I would have borrowed the camper if Chuck didn't sell it. This is the first weekend in 7 months I have been wearing socks. The house looks better than green (its all white now). I think the only thing we need to work on is the ramp outside leading to the porch. I replaced the screen door this morning leading to the back porch. I need to add a railing to the ramp yet. I added some new pics today as well I went a little camera happy....I have been sticking close to my salad dinner diet. I really want to lose at least 20 pounds. I would feel alot better. Been thinking of taking up walking too.. whohoo lol

I know this has to be the five hundreth blog posting on 9-11..but anyhow. Every year our generation ask where we were on 9/11.. I was working at downtown Chicago on this day. At the Field Museum of Natural history nearly wrapping up a contract job. I got the call soon after the second plane hit not to go to work that day because the museum would be closing down that day. ..Tell you the truth some of the things I saw on TV run through my head. The people hanging from windows trying to escape the flames dropping to the ground below....I dont watch documentaries of that day because I was floored. it took me a some time to snap out of that. It was a feeling I didn't want to be in again. I listened to Howard Stern in the morning as the third plane hit the Pentagon. The biggest worry my Mom was telling me was where were all the planes they couldn't find. And drop on a population center anywhere. I felt we have been comfortable and rather ignorant that we are untouchable. As a student of history those who have done this are rarely brought to justice. But I feel we should have been pursuing this guy for the last couple of years than fighting in a war that had nothing or very little to do with the War on Terror. I feel the events could have been prevented... As long as we are strong and keep viligent something like this should never ever happen again. Remember thank our troops for making this sacrfice for us. Light a candle today.