Today i hit a pretty bad spot and moms on the brink of passing away. Taking care of her is the hardest thing i've ever done physicaly and mentaly.
I lost my head this afternoon and sobbed for what seem like forever.
Im stupid when emotional, so i accidently busted my lip open when i was banging my head on the floor, its agrivating me right now heh
But after i calmed down i went to get some food with friends, and i held in the urge to scream, holler and cry easier than when at home. And i laughed and had fun and forgot about how destroyed i really feel inside for a few moments.
Its amazing how a lil change in what your doing can really bring you back to sanity.
Soo im ok, and for the moment mom is still hangin on, even though every last thing i remember her for from my past is gone from her.
Now i just gota wait, if she can pull herself out of this everything will go on like it has....or she'll go. For her sake im hoping for the second one.
But for the time im here...dunno who i am or how to think anymore but im here
