susie1976's blog: "Heart of Gold"

Shot at 2007-07-18 My Aunt raises weinner dogs, she had 2 puppies 6 weeks old she was giving away. She gave my oldest daughter the boy puppy. Well, that night my aunt called to inform me that her 5 month old puppy was bad sick vomiting. She ask how our puppy was doing, I told her he was acting depressed, just lying around. I ask her how the sister to my pup was doing, she said she was doing fine. I told her I would keep a check to see how much he was eating and drinking. The next morning she took her 5 month old puppy to the vet and found out it had parvovirus. the vet gave her antibiotics and told her to keep forcing him to drink gatorade. I told her to call the vet back to inform him about the two 6 weeks old puppies and ask him if he would give them some antibiotics. She did and went back to pick two bottles of antibiotics. Well in the meantime I had my puppy in a kennel by himself he was drinking water on his own but he would not eat any food. He had very loose bowl movements with a very foul oder. I got on the internet searching for home remedies for the parvovirus. I came across several forums saying bleach is the most effective way of killing the parvovirus. They advised to get 1 quart of gatorade and mix 1/2 a teaspoon of bleach in it and force the puppy to drink it. I tried this with my puppy plus the antibiotics, within 2 days later he was up running around playing. Thats why I named him spirit.

My Mama & Me

I dedicate this to Linda Jane Yeager

Born on March 1st 1960-

Deceased on Febuary 9th, 2006

Why can't I live everyday like its gonna be the last? Except for the last day with my Mama, I could not even say goodbye. We put her on life support, but now I wish we didn't. She was suffering and hurting, she had been for a long time. I was so selfish wanting her to get better so she could be with me and my girls. I prolonged her illness by making her suffer 5 more days on life support. I was trying to beat fate but fate won, just as always!!!

Dear Mama,

I am so sorry for being selfish and not being there to take you to the hospital, instead I left you about 9:15 p.m. to go to work. I was so worried that my job needed me and was depending on me to be there. I regret leaving you knowing you were struggling to breathe, but you had refused to go back to the hospital. When I ask you if you needed to go, that was a stupid question it was only obvious. I wish I would have taken you, if I would have only known that it was going to be the last time that I could of actually looked into your big beautiful brown eyes and talk to you. I would have never left you to go to work. My heart aches, My tears fall, I have so many things to ask & tell you about. I feel crazy talking to you out loud or everyone else assumes I'm crazy. I am CRAZY, I'm crazy over you just like the song we used to sing together by the judds Mama he's Crazy. I Love You And Miss You So much, it's been so hard to accept your gone. Sometimes it seems as if I feel you hug me when I'm sad, or maybe its me wanting to beieve you are hugging me!!!

Moma I miss u
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