He says I don't care, he says I'm never there,
For some weird reason I don't think it's fair.
He says I lie, he says I hide,
By his rules I have to abide.
I'll slink away to my own personal doom,
The way he acts brings me such gloom.
I can't believe he said those words to me,
His fighting words won't let me be.
They consume me inside out,
It leaves me wondering what we're about.
I'm left here to comfort myself, although I don't know how,
The looks I get make me feel like a cow.
Not pretty nor am I perfect, I know this for sure,
For my insecurity there is no cure.
I'll deal with it, here and today,
I've always left my feelings locked away.
He doesn't understand, he never will,
He doesn't know my inner demons I must kill.
Alone and by myself, that's what I have to do,
All my life, away from them I flew.
It's time to face the truth and deal with it now,
When they're defeated then I'll bow.
I'll sink to my knees in a fit of tears,
Something I've wanted for all these years.
They'll be gone, they'll finally be dead,
Inside I won't feel any more dread.
I dread the day for this to come,
For now I feel like such a bum.
I leave them there to devour me inside out,
I don't know what it's about.
I'm lost and I'm confused without a hand to hold,
To his wishes I, myself, have to mold.
Make me perfect, make me pretty,
Inside make me feel so itty bitty.
The time has come for us to part,
My inner demon slaying is about to start.
Let me go and finish the job for good,
I'll hide my face with a hood.
He won't see it coming, I know he won't,
Helping me is something to which I say "Don't".
Let me do this on my own,
I don't need your help; I'll catch my tears in a cone.
I'll hold my own hand along the way,
I'll keep my feelings away from you and out at bay.
Is this the end? I don't kn ow.
I don't know where from here to go.
I love you so, I really do,
I've always considered you my boo.
The time has come for me to part,
I'll leave you with my broken heart.
I don't know where this will leave us,
I wish to our old relationship we could bus.
Travel back to another place, another time,
My inner clock begins to chime.
It snaps me back to an evil reality, the here and now,
I hope your heart I don't disavow.
I don't mean to hurt you, I really don't,
I tell myself not to, and inside I hope I really won't.
I need you here to support me, I need you to be here,
I'm afraid to show you my every tear.
Please just listen and heart me out,
I need to find what I'm about.
