In this world of darkness and dispare, there is one thing keeping me alive. Something so pure and modest, innocent, but at the same time, extremely cruel. It is bliss, but still corrupt.
It comes in the shape of a little angel boy. It has taken over my heart, putting a leash around my soul, begging my mind to follow. I have lost myself within this trap, a trap of love taken over by false hope, executed by the hurt trailing behind this angel boy. His shadow forms the shape of a demon, his arrow driving through my heart. I cry as I feel this poison flow throughout my veins. You are a devil in the disguise of a boy, an innocent young man as it would appear. Your eyes are dark, and your smile, alluring. Your love for me feeling as pure as the new dawn. Feeling harmless until the day you say one word, wrapping that leash tighter around my soul.
"Forever."
Forever bound by your love.
Forever in the grasp of this.. disease.
Forever in a world of poisoned arrows.
My heart stops as I fall for you, my soul becoming forever wrapped in these binding ropes. You have locked my heart up within your dark soul, never to be released back unto me. I cry everyday, wondering why it was my disturbed spirit you decided to capture. My whole world has crashed.. and for what? An eternity wrapped in the affections of a devil? Tell me how I can survive this fall from grace. Reassure me that I will keep my sanity. Keep me safe from this evil within as it slowly grasps tighter, suffocating me. I try and scream, but my cries turn into whispers as they drift off gently. I cry tears of blood, mourning the loss of my loneliness. I consume this Cyanide labelled 'love', allowing it to kill me slowly. You take me by the hand and I fall again.. harder.
I yearn for the second when you realise your mistake. I continue falling from this fifty story building, hoping that one day I will wake from this dream of a dream of love. I will find out that this isn't real, my hopes once again being crushed by this incurable cancer. Love gives me my good days, but also threatens the bad. Love makes a million promises, only to break them all. Love has brought us together, only to seperate us with an ocean.
Who is the real monster here? You, for allowing the arrow to puncture your heart? Or the little angel boy who shot the arrow, sealing our fate?
I don't deserve this love you have given me. You really are a devil behind a mask, torturing me with your endless love, holding me tight and never letting go. You have put my heart under lock and key and poisoned my soul with your passion. I will try and swim through this ocean to get to you, to find the key to my heart. I love you with every ounce of hope that writhes within me. I know now that you are at the bottom of this building, waiting to catch me. I have suffered long enough fighting this fall.
I have come to my end. My heart belongs to you for all eternity. I finally give up this battle to rid the poison that has consumed what I am. I have fallen in love with a monster who accepted a poisoned arrow to drive deep within his heart, finally commiting himself to a burden, ready to excorsize these demons within. Forever with me till the end of time, writhing in pain that follows love, up until the day our souls die.
I now see through your disguise and see something evil within. Your dark aura surrounding you like a cloud of dispare. When will you let me go? When will you finally see that I am only a burden full off depression and angst? I long for the day when you open your eyes and see through MY disguise. The day when the poison from my heart seeps into your soul...
