As of this last Sunday it was recommended that I go back on my birth control patches to get back to normal....I remember when I was waiting for the right time to get off of them and now I am back on them but I get the feeling that they are working. I am starting to feel a little bit more normal again. I still cry sometimes and miss my baby. I made a little place in the house dedicated to the baby on an onld fashioned dresser and I have promised myself to take it down by the first of the year or when I am pregnant...whichever comes first. I want to remember this but I dont want to drag it out for too long. I think that I am already starting to let it all go. I didnt go in for my blood draw yesterday or today. I am gonna wait as long as I can before it drives me crazy and I NEED to know my numbers. Maybe I will go tomorrow. Thanks to those that keep following this with me.
