I have be alone for a long while now by my choice. The main reason is I just was tired of ppl using me for a place to stay and support them while they did lil to nothing more than just some of the house work. Keep in mind not all the house work. Any way im just wondering how much should I let go if I were to let some one in. To me its almost like i loose myself if i let some one in and have to give up lil things. Is that really true? Hell I dont know. I have one friend on here that I wish I could talk with because I know thier mine runs alot like mind, but im invisible to this person. Thank you to those who I do talk with its just a hard wired brain thing. I want the impossible, dream for the world, expect nothing, and get worse.