I haven't added anything here for along while, but I thought I would attempt to explain a lil bit about me actually. The best way I can say is I'm a lil way out in left field and also way out in right field. For now i'll just say that i try hard to be orginal. If its been done i'll do something dif. Im going to be adding more in the coming days keep checking if you dare.

I had thought ppl learned or knew better about online dating, relationships, marriages etc. I have been chatting for the better part of 12 yrs on just about ever forum they have come up with. I have done it all on chat and have learned that no matter how much u talk online, on the phone or what ever, you can never know the person well enough to truely love them. Spending time together in real life there are so many things spoken and unspoken that go on that can never really be expressed online. Its the things that really matter. I feel that without knowing the real life things you cant truely love someone or say u want to be with that person in real life long term. It is possible to have a close bond with someone and really care about them. I just dont feel that it can be called love. I dont understand how ppl can make a commitment to some one online and never see the person. Is it just the fact they "live" on the computer? Maybe so.

I've tried to explain this to ppl over and over again if the say they love me and i wont say it back. They usually say its ok, but in the end they get upset about it. Why cant it just be a close friendship. To me friends are better anyway they last longer than most relationships now a days.