Happy Country Girl's blog: "Blog of a Crazed white woman"

Well, I went to all of my doctor appointments today like a good girl. I was even nice to almost everyone I had to deal with. Anywho, the results weren't what I wanted to hear but I am trying to keep my head up and think positive. I am even more scared now than I was before I went for the results. The cat scan that I had done showed a tumor on my left kidney and also one on my left adrenal gland. They did more blood work and made me an appointment to see an urologist at 9:15 in the morning so that he can view the test results and see what my next step should be. Like I said, I'm scared. I'm nervous. And I am pissed off. I want it all to go away and for my life to find some kind of normalcy once again. Again, I ask that you all keep me in your thoughts and prayers. Thanks so much! Mary

Some of you know that I had some serious testing done last week. 5 tests done over a 3 day period. Trying to find out what is causing some problems that I am having (seperate from my leg). I got a call from one doctor today letting me know that the test came back abnormal. I have to go back in the morning at 8:30 to see the doctor that ordered the tests and as soon as that appointment is over, I have to go to my family doctor to have more blood work done and to have more testing ordered. Needless to say, I am pretty scared right now, and that is something that doesn't happen very often. I'm also very angry. Just sick of being sick. It's affecting my life in more ways than just health wise. And I am mentally and physically drained from all of it. I can only hope and pray that the doctors are now on the right track to solving all of my problems and I can move on with my life. Anyway, I ask that you all say a prayer or two for me that everything will be alright and that I will have the strength to get through all of this. Thanks so much! Friendly Hugs & Love, Mary

They moved my surgery time up and I am now home and in loads of pain. They weren't able to do everything that needed to be done because it was wors than they thought. So they will be scheduling the basically the same procedure to be done again sometime in the near future. I'm just so damn tired of this. After 5 years of dealing with, I have had it. But what do you do? Lay there and let them do what they have to do. Anyway, thanks for all the kind words and prayers and please continue with them. Much love, Mary

After 37 years of living in the same house, my grandparents are putting the house up for sale, buying a mobile home and putting it on the land of my parents. Is this something they want to do? Not particulary. But the neighborhood they live in has gone to hell. They have basically outlived all of their lifelong neighbors and their is a new generational neighborhood there now. A neighborhood of drug dealers. We have all called the police, been to the city council and nothing will be done. You see, it's a very small town. The town I actually grew up in. A town that has had the same law enforcement for as long as I can remember and there have been rumors for years that they are in on the drug dealings in the town. No, I can't prove it, but when you see the happenings that we have seen and no one will do anything, you can't help but question it. So now, our family has to give up a part of what has been home to us for all of these years. I myself have some good memories there and I have some memories that I wish I didn't. Nonetheless, I want my grandparents to be safe. Not lose their lives over a quick high that a neighbor gets or a drug deal gone bad. It is however a sad day when the 'good guys' have to give up to the 'bad guys' because the government and law has gone to hell in a handbasket. The bright side of this story is that I will now have my grandparents living about 4 minutes from me. If you think I'm spoiled now....you ain't seen nothing yet. lol But trust me, I spoil them in return.