So sick of this life, sick of trying to hide
survive under disguise, but im tired of this lie
pain to hard to describe
wanna be happy but cant find the time
cant find a reason why
so scared and confused cuz im feelin so used
hiding from the truth
leading my life in the wrong fuckin way
gettin in trouble every other fuckin day
my own thoughts leading me astray
on the right path im tryin to stay
for my mistakes i dearly pay
something good comes but shes so far away
all you see is the design of the mask
missing the signs all to fast
i cant be me when my whole worlds crashed
cant repair this shit, the damage is too vast
im all fucked up the votes been cast
its all sitting pretty,dead in the past
i cant take this shit, its fucked me up bad
my life is fucked up, its really kinda sad
i cant help but think i really need my dad
i was always in a safe zone under his wing
im fucked up my life when i went to do my own thing
i know my fucked up life comes as a sting
i cant be playin these fucked up games
everyday i wake up its always the same
i look in the mirror i feel so ashamed
like what the fuck, this aint how i was raised
the way i see myself i keep myself goin insane
so many fucked up things runnin through my brain
every mistake is one big stain
always tearing through another page
my life keeps steppin up to a harder stage
but everyday trapped in the same cage
all that i think about keeps me enraged
and all other feelings start to fade
an attack on my mind, another raid
i joined the army when i should've stayed
thoughout life all feelings change
everytime i think, i see myself, all i see is pain
i just cant stop thinkin, i keep myself crazed
take a look at my life, im at a standstill
take a look at my life, let me pop those pills
take a look in my eyes, hate is all i feel
look deep into my eyes, i am not real.
Dustin B. Unrath Nov 28 07
