TEH S3X N1NJA K1NG PROMO FANTASIA OWND ...'s blog: "Angry/sad poetry"

Tonights the night i take my life ill slit my wrists with the blade of a knife im sorry for the pain that this will cause you im sorry for all the sweet things i didnt do ive defied death once and again but now its me who puts life to an end i just cant go on living like this this army life its all bullshit my girls tellin me things i dont wanna hear all adding up to one huge fear ironic enough life can be to kill my pain i must kill me create new pain to take pain away should i fail try again another day the darkness and despair, the desolation of my hell all so you all can keep living well standing isolated under the strom all the feelings for me are a norm the rain falls down as im soaked to the bone all i want is to just go home ive fallen apart, im torn inside just finishing the job, ive already died keep gettin so close, keep gettin disarmed they keep popping up so i cant be harmed so i sit again alone, cold, and waiting every minute, every second, i keep hating everytime i try, i see that look in your eyes something stops me in which i cannont deny the times we spent the memories we share i know you still love me and that you still care my friends and my family are why im still on earth because of them ill deal with this curse if it wasnt for them i wouldnt be here id confirm their biggest fears theyd be dissapointed, the would be mad the would be tearful, they would be sad they need to know they make me survive if it werent for them i wouldnt be alive i love them all more then life itself which is why ill maintain my health now is the time i need them most so far away but i know theyre so close my family surrounds me but i call them angels but when im away my lifes so painful just for them ill keep holding on they may not survive once im gone who i am today is all because of them i owe them my whole life once again all i can do is sit and stare in disbelief of how much they care im not perfect but im perfect for them so here ill stay, waiting yet again Dustin B. Unrath may

I love her with everything and i always will i swear on my life i wont be killed ill do everything i can to come back to her hopefully it will be fast, just a big blur i cant imagine her without me by her side the night i left i really cried missing her already and i wasnt even gone without her here its hard to be strong i got my tight hug and my last solid kiss but those arent the only things im gonna miss those sparkling blue eyes and that stunning smile all are arguing and her crazy little style all the cuddling and staying the night watching her sleep after we fight laying with her til she falls asleep i wish forever she was mine to keep the night i left i squeezed her tight we didnt argue, we didnt fight wanted to hold her forever and never let her go i will always love her more then she knows every little thing reminds me of her a song, a memory, or even pictures remember the days where everything was easy before we both knew that i was leaving ive left and in a few months i go to iraq theres no garuntee that im coming back so one last time i will say in my head, on my mind i will always love you babe Dustin B. Unrath Jan 10 07

Im falling apart my worlds crashing down im dying slowly without a sound you stole my heart, you stole my soul all thats left is a gaping hole you sold me out you shattered my world this is the damage from a 15 yr old girl i call to say sorry the truth comes out you now have apology letters in route you have nothing to do with letters being faxed or the fact that our asses are gonna get waxed its been two weeks and still no trouble are we off the hook or are we gettin double we gotta talk face to face when i get back but i really dont know if im ready for that at least give me time to think and rest a couple of days so i can perform best so i can handle whatever is said even if its something i know ill dread we'll probably argue, we'll probably shout but its gravy baby, we need to let it all out no matter what happens at the end im thankful for all the time we've spent your the girl for which i fell together we're heaven but you put me through hell as my poem starts to slow its time for me to let things go Dustin B. Unrath Dec 7 06

If you keep faith in the faithless how will you survive you believe there every lie or will you run and hide if you keep faith in the faithless gotta expect to get played get fucked in different ways count the numbers on your days if you keep faith in the faithless you cant believe your past youll always come in last youll get all fucked up fast if you keep faith in the faithless you cant expect the truth you cant even trust your crew and theres nothing you can do if you keep faith in the faithless youll always be runnin out of luck youll always get fucked cuz there aint noone you can trust only keep faith in the faithless if you wanna act a fool if you wanna keep gettin screwed no power, always overruled dont put faith in the faithless Dustin B. Unrath Nov 23 06

You love me or you say you did but then again your just a kid only fifteen what do you know your still young you need time to grow maybe its better for us to stay apart back to the beginning we can both restart you go with him and ill find someone new welcome to my life, living without you no more worries, no more doubting no more fighting, no more shouting hope you have fun with your new guy and it doesnt hurt so much when i die when you hear of my dead body lying in the sand and look on your face when you look at your new man only then will you feel remorse and pain hear the words i love you echo in your brain you broke my heart before i left because thats what you thought would be best you'll be the one who ends up hurt worse you'll live on and you'll carry my curse you needed to have someone right there when im in iraq you wont notice or care ill have been gone and out of your life ill be dead before you become my wife your words i love you were untruly spoken our bonds of love were so easily broken our end came quick cuz im so far away you just used my heart so you could go play Dustin B. Unrath

Its all fucked up the games you play with me the things you fuckin do if only you could see your fuckin with my heart, your fuckin with my mind here i am thinkin bout you all the fuckini time too late now ive heard the good news youve got a new boy its mother fuckin true well fuck you then ill find someone else maybe they'll support me while im goin through hell dont worry bout me cuz ill be just fine but if i find out who it is ill break his fuckin spine i loved you babe and i always will but you fucked up tonights the kill tonights the night i take my life by pills, by shells, or the blade of a knife someway, somehow youll feel my pain let my last words echo in your brain you say you left me so if i die it wont hurt so much and you wont cry well we all know its a fuckin lie one no matter what you cant deny your leaving me for some little boy and dropping me like im a fuckin toy thats fine with me i deserve better then this i hope my taste stains your lips good bye Dustin B. Unrath Nov 17 06

I woke up this morning stepped out and looked up at the stars memories rushed back, of us in the past i wonder how we got so far {i may not be there physically but baby i wish youd see your the only one for me and ill always be here for you}chorus girl you need to understand, that i can be your man and your the only girl in my life glad that we're together and hope it stays that way someday youll be my wife babe your my one and only and without you im lonely so please come and hold me i cant help that you know me chorus Always on my mind, my eternal love shes my baby angel, my blessing from above look at those pretty eyes, the center of my world what a beautiful face, shes my baby girl chorus Dustin B. Unrath

Its time to face the truth, the matter of facts sometime in the next few months im goin to iraq ill be leaving her and may never come back sometimes thats what happens to soldiers in iraq ill be going to the sandbox to play and have fun ill be going to the sandbox with cool toys and guns the sandbox plays back so what do i do the trainings gettin tough but im pushing through i make the promise that ill live through its not one i can keep and i know sayin this may hurt some people deep time to face the truth likee i said theres a chance i may end up dead alli can do is hope for the best hope that the bullets stop at the vest hope that my bradley can handle the blast so im not just a memory of everyones past theres a war going on and im trained to fight it im scared for my loved ones and i wont hide it im not afraid of death but what my death will do to you if i dont survive can you still push through if i dont come back im sorry but you need to stay strong always remember ill be with you all along the time has come and the fight is real youll never realize the pain i feel i know i wouldnt be forgiven if i didnt come back if the loss of life and limb, and bloods spilled in iraq Dustin B. Unrath Nov 9 06

The truth of the harshness of reality and coming to grips i realize the truth and my whole world flips what if hes right and they arent truly friends they dont truly care but "will be there to the end" when he says they dont write me he isnt lying i keep wanting to believe that they are trying i have faith ill get their letters soon he says youve been waiting eleven weeks dude for every point i make hes got a counter to it everything he says he has a way to prove it maybe its to easy to get inside my head at this point in time id rather be dead so confused, so mixed up, cuz he seems so right i dont wanna believe but no letters tonight one day, some day ill have to face the truth cant take the pain and confusion, aint no use and it hurts because sadly its all true you never write me but i always write you you guys are spose to inspire me, be my motivation but here i am sittin alone in isolation you say you support me but little does is show it hurts deep down much more then you know ive got a girlfriend who doesnt recognize me as her boyfriend and i cant get a letter after all the time we've spent prepare for the worst but hope for the best its up to you to decide the rest Dustin B. Unrath

I look at you looking at me trying to figure out what did i see we had a good run but it wasnt meant to be so why do they say that the best things are free i think to myself and wonder why i put forth the effort and even tried all those nights youve made me cry youve torn me apart from the inside shoulda known from the start it wouldnt work out on a daily basis we would scream and shout back and forth complain and pout every word was an argument out of our mouths i love you girl and i always will but why should i be with you still those the kinda words that make blood spill keep wishing and hoping none of this is real keep hoping that ill wake up and scream keep hoping that this nightmare is a dream start to realize nothings ever like it seems it didnt work cuz we never worked as a team ill pretend its alright ill pretend im just fine ill pretend you still love me and that your still mine ill figure shit out when i run outta time our relationship ended at the start of this rhyme Dustin B. Unrath