ok so it's been 44 days now since he left. ive been through tears, hate, almost getting back with him, stress, and many offers to give me what ive been missing sex wise. as much as i want to take people up on that what will that lead to in my life now? i have 2 beautiful devil children to take care of that i wouldnt change in a million years. how do i meet my needs without sacrificing my self worth, and my idea of a great relationship? do i go out on these one night stands knowing how society has changed in the past 12 years or do i take the sympathy sex and just do it? i am ready to get on with my life, i have gotten 12 years stolen from me, i cant say that, the first few years were great. we had so much fun exploring our relationship and each other. we really got together well. the sex was great and so was the relationship...i thought. needless to say i found out recentley i was cheated on. why is it ok for a guy to cheat but not a woman? if i would have known i probably would have to get back at him but i was too good of a person then. im different now. i am a woman, i have needs and i need relationships, not like just 1 on 1 kinds where you spend so much time getting to know each other and then wondering why they dont call, i want to be wild. i want to have sex and not have to worry about what hes gonna think of me the next day, cause i dont plan on calling him. i would love to do that and might try but how am i gonna be if i really feel a connection with this person? how will i feel just walking away? i would be so happy with someone to have sex with on a regular basis but still maintain a normal family life? im getting tired now and waiting for a text so this one is short and sweet but i would love to know what other people are going through am i the only one out there?
