darkness personified's blog: "a day in my life"

if i feel love... i won't deny it... if you love me... i will cherish it... and if love's gone tomorrow... please don't hide it...

i guess i've never really gotten out of this circle...but just twirling inside... i've never asked for ppl to come into my life...i've never done any harm to anyone...i've never asked for sweet talks...all i did is registered in here and just talk...get away from real life for awhile... but i keep somehow...let ppl pushed their ways in...maybe i feel sorry...maybe i want to believe in the goodness of ppl...i don't know...this is a never ending story...but i managed to let my guard down..and exposed my vulnerability to ppl who has no qualms about hurting other ppl...just because they can do it hiding behind the monitor screen...menouvering their ways into my lifes...gained my trust than shoved it in my face... just need to get this off my chest... wondering why i'm still here??? i do meet some really nice ppl...ppl who are honest...sincere...i just won't let the other jerks change my mind about the goodness of ppl...i really do have nice friends in here...sam...stephen...phil...to name a few...

cajoled a wounded heart... with sweet empty promises... then let it fell apart... relished your callousness... so easy to apologize... so easy to tell lies... not a trace of remorse... deceit in your eyes... not entirely your fault... i was to be blamed... for the deluded thought... that there're two hearts aflamed... sorry...seems to be... the easiest... word...

in loving memory...of my heart... who's torn into pieces...but who gives a fart???

wake up with a smile...good to know i live to ride another day...yay!!!

a fool with a broken heart is just that...a fool!!!...

i have big ears...if you need to talk... i have broad shoulders...if you need one to cry on... most of all...i have a big heart...if you need a friend...

overwhelmed...by a sense of loneliness... misled by a bravodo of solitude... unmasked...just as vulnerable as anyone else... nostalgia...sets in...curdled...fermentation starts... the sudden realisation...the wretched truth... delusions...self explanatory... can't remember...what it feels like... to be held...to be kissed... to go to sleep in someone's arms... to wake up watching the lingering of a smile... on a lover's lips... to love and to be loved...such long forgotten feelings... faded memories...of sweet love making... the elusive pictures of a lover's caress... stirring up ripples...in a calm mind... that chose to forget...and yet always remember... sad and confused... i don't want to be alone... be it for the right or wrong reason... i just want to seek any comfort i can find... in the arms of a stranger...

yeah it moved out... all of a sudden... didn't leave a note... no forwarding address... so stop knocking on the door... 'coz love doesn't live here...anymore...

i don't care about ratings... i don't care about crushes... i don't care about comments... i only care about genuine friendships... but it's sad if i have to search for it in here... so tell me... am i a fool to bare my soul?...