darkness personified's blog: "surreality..."

a prick from the thorn draws blood ... bringing the finger to my mouth... i lick the crimson flow... the taste of rust on my tongue... touching the silky surface of the leaf... i remember the softness of your skin... as you lay there while i watch you sleeping... smiling like it's a secret you've been keeping... the velvety petals feel like your hair... as they brush against my face while you turn... with a smile that takes my breath away... as i lost myself in your embrace... burying my face in its fragrance... like breathing you in... as i press my face against your neck... and taste the sweetness of your kiss... holding the rose in my palm... i gently caress its beauty... then i crush it cruelly... as i remember...the poison you spread through my broken heart...

i have a shirt i hardly wear, bought it in dublin last april. anyway, eventhough it's pretty new, most of the buttons have popped...i think i only wore it twice...going through my wardrobe, i found it hanging in the corner so i decided to wear it...with only one button in the front about the same level with my nips so i wear it as if that's the way it's supposed to be worn...and climbed onto my bike and rode to work. here was i, thinking i looked cool with this shirt and speeding down the road...the shirt flapping showing some midriff and my belly piercing... at least, that's what i thought (i omitted to mention the extra flabs...)... so here i was, feeling smug...in my one-button shirt and cool bike...cruising down the road...em...i rephrase, speeding down the road....when the last remaining button popped open!!! uhm...i know you may think...big deal...well...eh...um...i forgot to mention i'm braless... didn't look around to find out who's watching...at least i can handle the bike with one hand and i managed to button it up...acting like the whole interlude was intended!! and i rode like the devil's after my hot ass!!! oh well...now i'm smarter...glad someone invented the safety pin...

i can see the fire lighting in your eyes, burning with intense desire that burns right through my soul... standing by the edge of a bottomless abyss, i would have let myself fall if i know i'd find you there...

may i be banished from heaven... may i be exiled to hell... may my wings be taken from me... may my halo be tarnished... but i would gladly succumbed... only to be loved by you... even if it's only for a day...

as dark as the deepest abyss... as black as an obsidian ... as cold as the siberian winter... as motionless as the dead sea... if the eyes are windows to my soul... tell me...what do you see???

waking to the feeling...of missing kisses... touching the coldness...of empty spaces... the colors of rainbow...the shadows of your eyes... reflections of loving you...the never-know-whys... bittersweet refrain...an unfinished melody... broken phrases...chaotic harmony... an unhealing wound...perpetually stabbed... bleeding crimson blood...spiked and laced... the exorcism...of haunting memories... erasing the wickedness...of invisible injuries... waking to the feeling...of missing kisses... filling up the void...of empty spaces...

love...interlaced with pain... perverted pleasure...self induced... illusion...elusion... delusion more likely... incoherence...incomprehension... temptations...seductions... break free...run free... intertwined...interwoven... elaborate rituals...savage copulations... tortuous emotions...self mutilations... the vie for pitiful handouts... misguided devotions... misconceptions.... of a martyred love... is a cruel mockery... of deceptions in disguise... love...a sadistic emotion...

caressed by the sultry night... i laid me down on the sand to rest... my body and soul so bare... teased the starlights in my hair... every beat of my heart ensnared... thundering with the waves astrayed... riding with the cajoling breeze seduction came silently to my mind so free... the silvery moon in mysterious eyes... alighting the fire in my sighs... caught a falling star... sent it to a love that might be far... lifted my arms in open embrace... to hug an imaginary romance... then the erratic buzz of a mosquito... awakened me from my romantic scenario... snatched a handful of sand... threw it to the howling wind... i traced my foot prints in the sand... waved goodbye to the sea with no end... blew a kiss to the erotic night... and blended with it in delight...

kissed by the morning sun...i awoke... tickled by it's golden rays running amok... hazy flecks...sashaying in it's glare... the hands of time...stopped and stared... lazily i stretched...and french kissed the breeze... frolicking amongst the billows of the curtains with ease... playing hide and seek...with my waking eyes... the mischievous smile...widening in style... turning...i pressed upon the satin sheet... like a lover's skin...silky and sweet... i pressed my face...into it's fragrance... and fell into it's cool embrace... blowing the lock of hair from my face... watched as it twirled and fell with grace... inhaling deeply...i breathed the beauty in... felt the butterflies fluttering within... such a sensual feeling...i deduced... and i kissed the sun back...amused...

i close my eyes...the flickering of the candle lights still shining through... fingers tracing...with my mind's eyes... re-enacting a lover's lips... over my forehead...my nose...my mouth... turning my face to expose my neck... sweetly offfering it to a vampire's hungry kiss... and a shiver runs down my spine... tingling...electrifying... every single nerves on blue flame... the anticipation...the aprehension... crossing my arms across my chest... like a sensual embrace... the caress...soft as the nights... riding the tides like orgasmic waves... arching my back...a sigh escapes... a long forgotten feeling...recaptures... i've been waiting for an eternity... to be loved by you... for just a day...