Well I have not been taking my meds like I am supposed too.. This time it sliped.. I really don't know what to do.. If I end up having that break down.. Why a break down? I am tired of people asking me for money all the time.. the people are is my mom she is driving me nuts.. I tryed but it don't seem to work at all..
Yes it is really bullshit, but I can't help it.. I did what I can.. I guess I am going have to get away for a while.. If my grandmother goes to Ohio than I am going up there to see my dad and my best friends parents.. It is the only way to get away from the computer and my mom and every one else that is here..
I have not been really out of the house expet for going to my Appointments.. I do want to get out but If I get out of the house, things will be out of hand.. Don't know why I am thinking this way..
My meds is the only thing that could or can clam me down.. I have depression and I do get depressed alot.. I try to write in my journal and it will get things off my mind.. It is hard but I know I can make it in life.. I really don't have that many friends here in Crossville Tennessee, the only people I have is my cousin tom and that is it.. he is the only person I try to talk to..
I talk to sabby she is my friend that lives in Granite City IL.. her and her mom are my best friends.. They make me laugh alot.. But sometimes I do get kind of hateful..
What I really want to do is change but don't know what to do about it.. I guess this is really hard for me.. Well that is all the updates and my thoughts..
I will update more on me soon..
Virgo24
