7.32pm - mentally unstable. 10:19pm I have just made an ass out of myself in front of myself. If I had split personallity, one of them would slap the other for thinking that it would all be allright again, that it would all fall back into place. The funny thing is, it's not the women you had that you still think about, it's the ones that got away. Before I had a chance to even settle from the shock I got by hearing her voice again, I am back in the time when everything seemed like it was put together by the nice people at Ikea - perfect. What goes around comes around, except it comes back around with a lot more baggage 'it' picked up on the way, souvenirs so to say, karma's a bitch. If you nibble on it, it makes sure to come back to bite your arm right off, and you deserve it because you initiated contact first, you started the chain of events. The news snowballed on me when I least expected it, when I was just allright. If you find a way for your heart to stop producing feelings of sadness, guilt, fear, stress, while still maintaining a normal 60-100 beats a minute, call me. 5.05am I wanted to fuck the dashboard of my friend's car tonight.
