when one door closes another opens....
what happens if i don't walk through?
what happens if i do?
what is this fear gripping me?
why can't i work past it?
i want to walk forward and can't.
i find that part of me wants to leap
part of me wants to crawl
don't want to make the same mistakes....
i don't want to be afraid...
i want my life
i want my freedom
i don't want to feel responsible, but i do....
what is happening to me....
i need to be in control...
just for a little bit.
i need to remember what confidence feels like.
