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created on 11/06/2008  |  http://fubar.com/wrenny-s-blog/b257495
OK so I have a friend that hooked me up with this guy only after she did her thing with him. At the time I did what any good friend would do if a guy that the other is either really liking or whatever. I asked her if it was cool if we went out on a date. She said sure there is no real feelings there and I don't care I'm done with him. Well come to find out she did have an issue with it and she lied to me while I was dating this guy by not only still talking to him but setting up plans to either get laid by him or date him. This is only after she said to me that she didn't want to talk to him anymore, so she said. Let it be known I don't do this behind another girl's back thing because the only reason women are not in power in america is we because some have this secret want urge and need to tear other women down. And well that's not how it should be, we should be able to build each other up.. When I did talk to this guy he told me that he was going to talk to both of us and if something happens between him and her or him and me then the other one will just have to happy about it. I finally, after that statement, told him no thank you. I'm not going to be in a competition with one of my friends for a man's affection. I made it very clear and very forceful statement and said No you can deal with her and never talk to me about thanks for the 2 dates and several phone calls by good bye. I really liked the guy but I don't want to be played against a friend. And I sure as hell don't was a man to be the reason a friend either lies or is secretive with me. There is no reason for that in a true friendship. I'm sorry, my best friend and me share damn near everything and we have no competitions with each other because we are open and honest. Why can't more women be like that with each other? Instead of being back stabbing and untruthful with each other. Yes we aren't all perfect. Maybe I'm more secure with myself and how I see myself that I don't need a man that thinks they can manipulate me into thinking one of my friends is a bad guy that needs to be beat in a competition for a man's attention. FUCK THAT SHIT!!! I'm a very strong independent woman that most men can't deal with. I would love to find someone that can deal with me without putting me down and trying to manipulate me. I would love someone that thinks saying another girl is hotter than me is going to make me feel bad. I would also love someone that doesn't think that I won't just leave their ass if I think I'm not being treated right. Sorry buddy this lil Italian woman will not stand for someone trying to make her feel bad, ruin my own thoughts of awesomeness about myself or try to get in between a friendship of mine. Thanks but most of my friends are my family as well.. And you mess with my family and you will get hurt, mostly mentally and emotionally. You all can have fun with that. So I'm done with my rant, Thanks for reading leave some rates or comments if you like, if not ahhhh well..
Kevin Rudolph ft. Lil Wayne (Let it Rock) :D (Verse 1 : Kevin Rudolph) I see your dirty face High behind your collar What is done in vain Truth is hard to swallow So you pray to God To justify the way you live a lie, live a lie, live a lie And you take your time And you do your crime Well you made your bed I'm in mine (Chorus) Because when I arrive I bring the fire Make you come alive I can take you higher What is this, forgot? I must now remind you Let It Rock Let It Rock Let It Rock (Verse 2: Kevin Rudolph) Now the son's discrased He, who knew his father When he cursed his name Turned, and chased the dollar But it broke his heart So he stuck his middle finger To the world To the world To the world And you take your time And you stand in line Well you'll get what's yours I got mine Chorus: Because when I arrive I bring the fire Make you come alive I can take you higher What is this, forgot? I must now remind you Let It Rock Let It Rock Let It Rock (Verse 3: Lil Wayne) Yeah! Wayne's world Planet Rock Panties drop And the tops And she gunna rock 'til the camera stop And I sing about angels like angelock-? And pay m-? A-? A-? A-? ? Im in here up like b***h what's up Mechanic, me, I can fix you up I can f**k you up I can f**k you down Shorty we can go wherever just pick a town And the jewelry is louder than an an engine sound Big xxx rocks like on the ground Baby like sex that's on the ground Weezy Chorus: Because when I arrive I bring the fire Make you come alive I can take you higher What is this, forgot? I must now remind you Let It Rock Let It Rock Let It Rock (x2) Just Let It Rock Let It Rock Let It Rock Let It Rock Let It Rock Let It Rock Let It Rock (Lil Wayne) I'm back like I forgot somethin I'm somethin -? Rock rubbin' rap runnin' Miles like I'm trying to get a fat stomach Like Wayne the personal trainer My aim is perfect I'll bang ya Period, Like the remainder (Kevin Rudolph) I wish I could be As cool as you And I wish I could say The things you do But I can't and I won't live a lie No not this time
Today I had a friend call me and tell me that he lost a patient. It wasn't any patient it was a fellow firefighter that he had worked with at the fire department he is at. This friend is a Fire Fighter/ EMT and knows that he can call me at anytime if he has a rough day. He has said before and again tonight that I'm one of the few people he can call and I'm able to calm him down. I didn't know what to say about this call though I didn't know how to empathize with him other than listen to him talk. He was called out on an unconscious person, and when he showed up the patient was in cardiac arrest. They didn't know who it was of course because only sometimes do we get information about the patient before we get there. The most we get is an age and sex. Well you can imagine his surprise when it ended up being a buddy of his.. 52 yo and dying of a massive heart attack. I have never had a friend or family end up being a patient of mine on a 911 call. I'm not sure what I would do.. I know I would do my job to the best of my ability, but afterwards if they died I would probably break down in a puddle of teary goo.. I was able to calm my friend down enough with my own story of Woah.. which consisted of having a patient with a massive brain bleed 2 days ago. We brought him to the closest band-aid station aka small hospital to get him stabilized and then off to the big ma'am ma jam'a hospital up in Indy. So he could get real treatment for his problem. My guy was 46 yo.. Sadly I don't think he is going to live long enough to see Thanksgiving considering how bad off he was. I was able to meet his wife for the 2 min prior to me driving the ambulance to the hospital with my partner and a fire fighter in the back. He also had 2 teenage sons. It's hard to think that they will be forever affected by what happened that night around this time of year when it's suppose to be joyous. I'm just glad I have good friends that I can call as well when I have those bad days. And all of my EMT friends can do the same with me. And they all know that. I'm glad I was the first person he called and I know I will have my day where I will have a fellow EMT or EMS employee be my patient and it will truly hit home. After talking to my friend I started thinking of all the patients I have lost, and some of my regulars that I loved to have as patients, and then later lost. Tears actually welled up in my eyes because of one patient that had touched my heart, and became like a grandma to me. Dialysis runs you get to know your patients inside and out.. and this was my favie. I always loved to see her and the day she died, I cried for a couple hours. This was a woman I was going to bring my son to meet because she was just that close to me, and she even asked 2 days before she died about when I was going to bring him to see her. It's a shame he didn't get to meet this lovely woman. I don't know maybe I'm rambling but I just know that it needs to come out so I don't implode.. It's a good thing that some people don't have to go through what EMT's go through but it's not easy to "just let it all go" Each patient leaves an imprint of themselves on your soul especially when they die on you. EMT's have a motto.. "No one dies in the back of the ambulance" but I will tell you this.. We know when there is no way the patient is going to survive, it's comes with the job you learn the signs get a gut feeling all of that good stuff. We might not let them die i our trucks but we know when the doc is going to call it as soon as we walk in the ER door.. And we normally get a call later saying yes or no on outcome if we leave before the doc calls it. The job is so hard sometimes and the only people you can call on are those that have lived it. Because this isn't just a job it's a lifestyle. We have our own language, and our own thoughts on life. Because we see the good and the worst of people out there. This poem that my friend DJ DP posted just shows how much we go through in a small view. He is a fellow EMT and sometimes the only person I can think of to call when I have had a bad day. Hope you enjoy.. This poem gives me chills sometimes, I hope it has the same effect on you because it's sooooo true and real. Love you, all my friends Time in Hell.... The medic stood and faced God Which must always come to pass. He hoped his uniform was clean, He'd gotten dressed kinda fast. "Step forward now, paramedic. How shall I deal with you? Have you always turned the other cheek? To my church have you been true?" The medic squared his shoulders and said, "No Lord I guess I ain't, cause those of us who wade in blood, can't always be a saint. I've had to work most Sundays, and at times my talk was tough. And at times I've been violent, cause the streets are awful rough. But I never took a penny that wasn't mine to keep... although I worked alot of overtime, when the bills got too steep. And I never passed a cry for help, though at times I shook with fear. And sometimes, God forgive me, I wept unmanly tears. I know I don't deserve a place among the people here. They never wanted me around, except to calm their fears. If you have a place for me, Lord, It needn't be so grand. I never expected or hand too much, But if you don't I understand." There was silence all around the throne, where saints had often trod. As there medic waited quietly for the judgment of his God. "Step forward now, paramedic. You've borne your burdens well. Walk peacefully on heavens streets. You've done your time in hell."
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