I'm terrified and I don't know what else to do other than put it in a blog. So goodness where do I start.
I suppose I'll start with the fact that we're a month away from the year anniversery of my Grandfathers death. This is pretty hard for everyone to deal with but of course it's hardest on my Grandmother. She has been living with my Mother since she had a pace maker put in and I am now temporarily staying with my Mother as well. Everything was okay for the first few days but now things are taking a turn for the worse. Over the last few days my Grandmother has been becoming quite sick and lastnight she took a pretty bad fall off the edge of her bed. It took both my Mom and I to get her back up.
So... Now my Grandmother has herself set in that state of mind where she's convinced she's gonna die. She had both my Mother and I in tears a little while ago listening to the way she was talking. She wants so badly to get the entire family together before she goes but my Mom and I bith know it will never happen due to the selfishness of some people in this family.
So I guess to sum this all up if she's not doing any better by tomorrow we're probably going to have to send her to the hospital. My biggest fear however is that if she doesn't get out of this mind set and depression that she is that she may end up joining my Grandfather on or before the year anniversery of his passing. I just don't know how well it could be handled by my Mom and I if that happend... Especially with her in the same house that would just make it ten times harder.
Anyway enough of my depressing bullshit for now.
Love & Hugs to all...
