MeLiSsAMaRiE's blog: "tired of crying"

Why do I still cry like it was yesterday when I found out I was blocked from facebook for simply trying to add him?  Why can't I just not give a shit and laugh it off why do I have to cry about it?  All I have wanted was for us to work things out and be friends but each time I try I get shot down and rejected!  It hurts so much.  Its been a year.  You would think in a year things would cool off and we could at least talk things out.  No he still blames me for everything and I get no voice just like when we were friends.  But I have to move on and surround myself with people who accept  me for who i am and forgive me when i make mistakes.