I think I know why my marriage is failing. We got married when she was young and we should have waited. Also because I'm a loser. I have never benn able to enjoy anything good for a long time. I thought things were fine but then I had a fight with cancer and I won. But I have been at home cause of being on ssi and watching the kids and taking care of the house.
I can't stop crying cause of how I feel about her. I have never loved someone as much as I do her. I've had 3 kids with an x and 2 with my wife and I love them all. I want us to be together cause I love her and cause the kids deserve to have their parents together.
I know we can take care of them apart but it will never be a family unless we are all together. I'm scared of loosing my family. I don't want to loose that or my wife that I love more then life itself.
I would die for her if it meant she could live. I don't want her to meet someone else I couldn't handle that if she did.I would would hurt forever unless we are together. I don't want to be with anyone else but her.
You know there is one reason that people like me look for love. IT's cause love is the closes thing to magic that we can have. Some people want it more then others and the ones that get it are the ones that get married. You know when you find the one you want cause you're always nervous around that person, or you get butterfly's in your stomach and you always want everything to be right all the time.
I'm so depressed and just don't know what to do since I don't really have friends to talk ot. This is more of a rant then a blog. I'm sorry guys I didn't know where to put it.
