Silver Diamond's blog: "Random Shit"

These are some of the things that have influenced my life and made me who I am today.

Some things may shock you, as I have experienced some scary shit in my day. But I don't regret anything, and I won't apologize for anything I have done as it wouldn't change anything.

So, if you are REALLY interested and read with an open mind, you just might learn about what makes me tick. Or not.

Either way, this is theraputic for me, a way to release my thoughts so I don't implode. lol

1. I was born with a birth defect effecting my bladder and kidneys.

2. I spent most of age 10 in a hospital to correct the defect.

3. I have virtually NO memory of my life before the surgeries. So in essence, my life began when I was 10.

4. My mom and dad divorced by the time I was 11.

5. I lost my virginity at 13 to a 19 yr old guitar player, in a cemetary.

6. By 15, I was a drug addict, and my older brother was a violent alcoholic. He would beat me up daily.

7. I was date raped at 16. I never reported it. I also quit drugs. Cold turkey.

8. At 17, I got a job being a groom for 12 race horses and moved to Spokane, Washington to work the circuit. However, when I arrived in Spokane, the job wasn't. I spent almost a year on the streets.

9. I was gang raped at 19. I never reported it.

10. I got pregnant at 20. The father never wanted anything to do with it. So I had my daughter at 21, on my own.

11. I met my best friend, Della. We partied through ages 21 to 24. It was the late 70's, early 80's. Free love, free sex. Aids had not arrived yet.

12. I married my first husband at age 25. The marriage lasted 4 miserable years. I was 29 and 3 months pregnant with my second daughter when I left him. He was mentally abusive and had become a crack addict.

13. I remained single until I met my second husband. We were together on and off for 7 years before we got married. The marriage lasted 3 years. He left because he thought I had an affair. I didn't, and proved it, but he wanted out anyway. We are still friends.

14. I have been in only 1 long term relationship since then. A few short term.

Bear in mind, this isn't the entire story of me. Just a few key points. A smattering of tidbits to let maybe a few of you into my psyche a little further. Some of you may read this and go, "huh? wtf would she blog this shit??" To you, I say, don't try to figure it out. It is obviously too deep to be wasted on your simple mind. Delete me now so you don't have to think about it anymore. To those of you that might get it, awesome!

Thanks for letting me blog/vent/rant