Well first off I know I'm breaking with my normal style, of putting song lyrics in the subject line of the blog, but right now I don't care...sorry I'm not mad at anyone that is reading this...I'm just generally pissed...Halloween the only time folks dismiss my "darkness" as me getting "into the spirit" is not the same this year...sure the whole year has gone to hell in a handbasket, and I entertain thoughts of those that would miss me...well the only one that would is my mother, and she's not around to suffer if I disapear, so maybe I just don't care...and right around the corner comes the worst part of the year for me...Christmas time, ya know for 2 weeks already the stores have hade Christmas crap out...this past weekend the plaza put up their sh*t...geez it's not even Halloween and already I'm getting this crap shoved down my throat, and people wonder why I HATE CHRISTMAS...it's gotten so phony, commercial, so damn "kabuki theater"...you know where the actors have their faces painted, everyone puts on a "Christmas-y" face to show the world that they are in the holiday celebration...BAH HUMBUG...I love that...I refuse to be faked out, to me people are fake anyway, since I don't trust anyone...and I refuse to be counted among the faceless masses trudging back and forth from the malls, stores, etc...my family knows how I feel, and they accept me...ok I do fake a bit...only for my children, they're to young to realize what crap the "holliday season" is...nor will I tell them my views, they are smart, they can figure it for themselves...well the little pick me up called Halloween is not helping me...so I guess I'll slip deeper and deeper into my darkness till I can no longer see the light...
