My letter to me...Self Love
I'm sorry I've let you down. I've let you fall for those that abused instead of appreciated. That drained instead of filling. That took your all willingly yet gave sparingly. I never wanted you to be hurt. I never wanted you to feel left out. I never wanted you you to ache. I am sorry Martin for letting you down and not protecting you. I'd plead for your forgiveness but forgiveness is for the part that neither one of us can seem to control. We give without care and we give completely. How do we learn to short change desire. Addicted is how we approach want. We, my friend, are gamblers in the truest sense of the word. We bet our most sacred on want and hope love hits. Win at the cost, is it worth it? Well I guess the pain of it not, is the answer. Yet we still bet. Not considering we could just bet time and cash out whenever necessary. Time is what we never can get back. Love is what we want back. Both out of our control and both our master. I'm sorry Martin that I am addicted to love MORE than I love you. I guess I'm just not worthy of you. The price U pay for me loving so intensely isn't worth the cost of us. I DO love you and that love is more important than the love that could ever be given from anyone else. We share forever...E.D.M.L.
