The time that i've wasted is my biggest regret,
spent in these places I will never forget.
Just sitting and thinking of the things that I've done.
Now it's just me and my hard driven guilt.
behind a wall of emptiness I allowed to be built.
I'm trapped in my body, just wanting to run.
Back to my youth with laughter and fun.
But the chase is over and there's no place to hide, everything is gone, including my pride.
With reality suddenly pushing right in my face,
I'm scared, alone and stuck in this place.
Now memories of my past flash through my head,
and the pain is obvious by the tears that I shed,
I ask myself why? and where? it went wrong.
I guess I was weak when I should've been strong.
Living for the drugs and the wings that I've grown, My feelings were lost, afraid to be shown.
As I look at my past it's easy to see,
the fear that I had, was afraid to be me.
I pretended to be rugged, so fast so cool
when actually lost like blind fool.
I'm getting to old for this tiresome game,
or acting real hard with no sense of shame.
It's time that I change and get on with my life,
fulfilling my dreams with my family,
what the future will hold I really dont know,
But the time I've wasted is starting to show.
I just live for the day when I'll get a new start,
and the dreams I still hold deep in my heart.
I hope I can make it, I at least have to try,
Because I'm heading for death, and I dont want to die...
By Julienia
