Too many people waste time and moments in life with useless emotions or too much pride.
Anger, hate, and jealousy are probably what keep most people from living life to its fullest and enjoying everyday like it may be there last.
I did for19 years and I’ll never be able to make that up no matter how much I try.
Yes there was moments of happiness in there along the way, but they were too far and few between.
I know most of the time I use to blame it on my pride, because I’m a fighter. Always have been and always will be, but I didn’t always fight the good fight.
I realized this sometime ago, but could never put the plan I had into effect so I struggled with my emotions all the time.
One day I just realized that my idea of what pride had meant was wrong.
If you truly have pride in yourself, that means you’re able to put things aside for the greater cause of whatever it is your searching for in life.
My pride and emotions I use to have never did anything but slow me down from leading a happy and fulfilled life.
Now I find myself where I longed to be for so long.
I don’t take things for granted or hold grudges anymore.
That doesn’t mean that I don’t still feel some of the anger, hate, or jealousy I did before it just means that I know if I dwell on it like I did and not get past it I’ll stop living again and just waste more time here with people I know, care about, or want to take the time to get to know.
I’ve wasted half of my existence already and I can’t get those years or words I’ve said back, but I can try to make the most of whatever I have left here.
So, if I ever have a disagreement with you, and I let it go quickly, understand it’s not because I don’t care, it’s because I know that we’re all different and the way I perceive things may not be the way you do.
I just refuse to have what time I have left be a waste of life, because time stands still for no one.
