Why doesn’t she/he call as much as before?
Who is she/he talking to right now?
What is she/he doing?
When is she/he going to feel the same?
Where is she/he at?
How come we do this to ourselves?
Am I the only one who has ever thought this way?
Did she/he do something for me to be this way?
Will I ever stop this thought pattern?
If I do care as much as I think I do, then why do these feelings surface?
Every time I get to this point I usually begin to doubt that what I feel is true.
I turn all the empty question into a problem of there’s not mine.
I’ve grown up the past few years and have realized reasons for things I’ve done/do.
It’s never been the distrust for them that these questions/feelings raise to the surface.
The person I don’t have trust in is me.
I’m only good at matters of the heart when it’s not mine that may become broken.
I tell people what they/I should do and it more often then not works out for the best.
So WHY is it that I can trust everyone else, but myself?
I know what/how I FEEL better then anyone else ever will.
So why is it then that I distrust my heart so much and dismiss my feelings as to rushing in and the excitement of something new?
I’ve never been hurt by someone else, only by myself and the fact that I’m scared to care/love.
