We've all heard sayings such as "Use it or lose it", "Practice makes perfect.", "I'm a little rusty.", or "Sorry baby, I can't fuck like I used to."
It applies to all aspects of human life from sports, games, drinking, drugs, art, and social interaction. If you don't keep up, you fall behind. The kind of "use it or lose it" attitude that I'm reffering to is basic political and social decsent.
A few weeks ago I lost "it". Now I've got it back. I was so wrapped up in my school,job, mixing records and partying, buying the bar etc., that I lost sight of one of the most basic and important aspects of human existense: descent. Descent against social norms, and political ignorance. Descent against corrupt government, crooked cops, and descent against bliss. Yes, bliss.
For a while I got so wrapped up in the normal everyday life that people go through, that I was happy. I was actually happy with the world. I said to myself, "Self, you have a beutifull life, a chance to even do more, a job, and a wonderfull girl that will soon be yours. What's not to be happy about?"
That's what I lost. I lost the ability to determine what was bad about this world. I spent so much time focused on myself and what I had, that I didn't give a shit about what others might be going through. I didn't have time to read about the Iraqi children getting their arms and legs blown off. I didn't have time to read blogs of female soldiers getting raped because sexually suppressed, perverted soldiers had been away from their wives too long. I didn't have time to listen to interviews about poor parent's who's children got murdered in front of their eyes by crooked cops. I didn't have time to read about how our government is spying on us using sophisticated keyword software determining who's socially acceptable or not. For a moment, ignorance was bliss, and I was happy.
Now that I've got "it" again, I'd like to say something: I don't want to be blissfull. I hate ignorance. I feel like shit bieng euphorically drugged by societies infinate distractions. I want to be mad. I want to feel like throwing a brick through the window of a federal building. You should want to throw a brick through the window of a federal building too. Of course you shouldn't, because it's an illogical way to fix the problems at hand, but you should want to. It feels completely natural for me to want to do that. It makes me feel human to be angry at our "descision makers" It makes me feel human to be angry with people who don't pay attention to the problems in this world. It makes me happy to be mad in that way.
Now before judging my extreme thought crime remember this: I'm constantly told that "I'm an angry person" because I complain about my criminal government. They say "You've got it all. Why are you so pissy? Your spoiled and greedy! You want more!" Your godamned right I do! I want everyone to have what I have! Everyone should have what I have!
Of course I get angry at my government when they sexually torture little boys. Why am I spoiled when I don't want that to happen? Wouldn't you be angry if some country out of nowhere bombed your house and blew your childs leg off? I rest my case. Let's not worry so much about "number 1." Let's the end assinine fuckery. Let's drop bliss, get pissed and show these coropt cops that kill at will at make there own laws and politicans that in slave us and posion us and destroy are country and everybody elses
