This will be the only thing I write that will speak
Unto my friends and show them all how I am weak
The bigger puzzle a small percentage of me
A small percentage of me that just wants me to leave
That percentage of me that just wants me to bleed
Somebody has to understand cause we're all just human beings
A small percentage of me that will never become a man
Cause a bigger percentage of me rarely ever meets a man
Ain't that hard to understand, people always say they grown
These same people will never admit they're wrong
But I'll be the first to say it "I'm wrong"
To say I deserve, I was wrong all along
I don't deserve to have friends, never wanted them either
But if given the choice, I would step up to lead them
Away from this hell, away from this disgrace
Everyday I've shown my face I've grown so ashamed
Of myself, my friends, who don't know why they came
How dare they feel like they need to be entertained
Most of us wanna know why life is this way
But ignore God when he has something to say
There are plenty of questions, I don't deserve to have an answer
Like why those important to me end up with cancer
Why is it, everybody feels like they deserve respect
Why the girl, I thought the love of my life switched up and left
To let people know how I felt my feelings crept
And still to this day, no one knows of the pain thats being dealt
Cause my pride won't let them see the anger in my eyes
And my smile won't ackowledge the inner me that is crying
I do everyone a favor by keeping those around me smiling
Everyday I say that I'm happy I'm steady lying
And I'm not, at least till my cousins live better than me
Until my babies won't have to see what I've seen
I'ma be the best damn father that I can be
And my children gone be even better parents than me
Until I can give a woman the utmost respect she really needs
And finally get my mother that house, right near the beach
Until I can show God, he really is my father
Until I can beat the hell out a nigga who beats his daughter
Until I can show the world it's never about the money
And show these clowns I wasn't meant to be funny
I apologize, this is my only time to be selfish
I'm leaving everybody, my heart is where I left it
It never meant nothing to me, I won't protect it
I need to be closer to God whom I've neglected
Just give me my music, and a world to myself
So I can talk to you alone with nobody else
And for a couple days they might think that I'm crazy
My own mother won't even recognize I'm her baby
This selfish phase, will be the time that I change me
So all the people I know will never want to replace me
And thoThis will be the only thing I write that will speak
Unto my friends and show them all how I am weak
The bigger puzzle a small percentage of me
A small percentage of me that just wants me to leave
That percentage of me that just wants me to bleed
Somebody has to understand cause we're all just human beings
A small percentage of me that will never become a man
Cause a bigger percentage of me rarely ever meets a man
Ain't that hard to understand, people always say they grown
These same people will never admit they're wrong
But I'll be the first to say it "I'm wrong"
To say I deserve, I was wrong all along
I don't deserve to have friends, never wanted them either
But if given the choice, I would step up to lead them
Away from this hell, away from this disgrace
Everyday I've shown my face I've grown so ashamed
Of myself, my friends, who don't know why they came
How dare they feel like they need to be entertained
Most of us wanna know why life is this way
But ignore God when he has something to say
There are plenty of questions, I don't deserve to have an answer
Like why those important to me end up with cancer
Why is it, everybody feels like they deserve respect
Why the girl, I thought the love of my life switched up and left
To let people know how I felt my feelings crept
And still to this day, no one knows of the pain thats being dealt
Cause my pride won't let them see the anger in my eyes
And my smile won't ackowledge the inner me that is crying
I do everyone a favor by keeping those around me smiling
Everyday I say that I'm happy I'm steady lying
And I'm not, at least till my cousins live better than me
Until my babies won't have to see what I've seen
I'ma be the best damn father that I can be
And my children gone be even better parents than me
Until I can give a woman the utmost respect she really needs
And finally get my mother that house, right near the beach
Until I can show God, he really is my father
Until I can beat the hell out a dude who beats his daughter
Until I can show the world it's never about the money
And show these clowns I wasn't meant to be funny
I apologize, this is my only time to be selfish
I'm leaving everybody, my heart is where I left it
It never meant nothing to me, I won't protect it
I need to be closer to God whom I've neglected
Just give me my music, and a world to myself
So I can talk to you alone with nobody else
And for a couple days they might think that I'm crazy
My own mother won't even recognize I'm her baby
This selfish phase, will be the time that I change me
So all the people I know will never want to replace me
And those that get to know me, will know I'm truely their homie
And stop messing with the evil, cause they know that they phonie
And I can get away from a past that's so lonely
It felt like it was good, but that's because I was hungry
So when my selfish phase is over, and I've loved myself
That lonesome, angry period beside myself
A new born child will break bread with everybody
And I'll be more supportive, and respectful to peoples hobbie's
I'll make it to the top without stepping on anybody
And I won't put myself over another bodyse that get to know me, will know I'm truely their homie
And stop messing with the evil, cause they know that they phonie
And I can get away from a past that's so lonely
It felt like it was good, but that's because I was hungry
So when my selfish phase is over, and I've loved myself
That lonesome, angry period beside myself
A new born child will break bread with everybody
And I'll be more supportive, and respectful to peoples hobbie's
I'll make it to the top without stepping on anybody
And I won't put myself over another body
