well. it has been since July 17th 2008, that my mom was taken away from me. every part of me was broken. I pushed everyone away, and remained distant...and it was the month before that...my brother was supposed to get married, to one of my dear best friends, but because they seen the pain that both my daughter, as well as myself were going through...they understood. They so kindly pushed their wedding day until this month, on behalf of my being the maid of honor, as well as the wedding cordinator. I never realized how much life was to be appreciated, until I met a few people...and learned things the right way. I can't pretend. I can't stay still. I have a beautiful seven year old daughter to think about, and to cherish. to love, and adore. She will always be put before any man, despite what others' may or may not think. I could honestly care less. I live for myself, and my family, and by God...that is enough. It has been the hardest time of my life, going through Han's birthday party, and Thanksgiving without my mother, and Christmas will be just as difficult. (looking for a crash landing, eh?) either way, my daughter will have the most amazing Christmas that I could have ever provide her with, and I am grateful for that. I miss my mom so dearly, but it is time for me to grow from this. So, my brother, and his wife ( as of the up and coming weekend ) will be the most precious couple in the world. I take pride in helping to make it happen. Yesterday, and last night...we the night that we had a mutual wedding party. All of our friends and family, were invited, and we had the time of our lives. Life truly is beautiful. take one step, and one day at a time...and you learn to appreciate what you have. until next time. xoxo. much love. ♥
