sometimes i wonder what is it i am actually doing with my life. Most of my hopes and dreams have burnt up in reality, as a kid i wanted to be a great chef and i used to love cooking -but six years in restaraunts killed that i rarely ever cook and its been bout six years since i quit the kitchens. i like doing art but my vision is never what ends up in the end product and the years ive been doing it my skills have barely progressed by the time i have it right i will be sixty, my job barely gets me by i havent gone grocery shopping in over a year. and the monthly ramen supply doesnt count. i lack vision and drive. where do you go from here how do you unbury yourself from suffocating in the life you lead without damaging the few good things in it. and all people ever seem to offer up is why dont you go to school but what good does school do if you lack motivation and money is a factor in that and bout $10k in the hole i dont think debt will help me anymore without a specific end rout. and im too sparse of a person to have one focus im a jack of all trades how do you focus on one thing when you want to do it all damn my life is confusing yet simple well just ranting and trying to think things through so dont mind this rambling but if you want to send me bundles of money feel free cause amillion dollars buys a lifetime of food and mt.dew
you always hear of people who sold their soul for fame and fortune wheres my contract
