Iron Butterfly's blog: "Life"

Can you actualy believe he wanted me to have sex with him last night. I was like NO. He's like well why not what do you expect me to do? I was like well go find yourself someone or use your hand. He tried to kiss me and I was like " I Knew it was a bad idea to stay here" and he stormed off. Later he comes in and wakes me up and said " i 'm sorry i tried to kiss you it wont happen again I feel really bad for doing it". I'm like just leave me alone.

I'm going up today to get my divorce packet. My best friend is going to help me fill it out. I did one when divorcing my ex 7 years ago, but the dang things have changed and Shell will be there for support too while I fill it out. Shell has stayed by me even when he would be so damn nasty to her I would stay away to keep from him trying to hurt her feelings or anything else. She has stayed by me. I love Shell to death and I can truely say that even though she and I have only been friends for 8 years, she has been the bestest friend in the world. Even more so than my so called best friend of 21 years (btw, she is no where to be found...hasnt been in a few years other than a , oh hey how are you when I see her where she works at). Even though she tried to tell me I was making a mistake marrying him in the first place, she still stuck by me and has always told me when I was tired of the B.S. she'd still be right there for me. Thanks Shell I love you and you don't know how much your friendship means to me ( I know I'm saying this here and she doesnt come on Fubar, but I still want the world to know how good of a friend she really is and how big a heart she has.)

On a sad note though, I lost one of my grandmas to a 6 year battle with bone cancer yesterday afternoon at 2:45. I love you grandma and you're in a much better place than the rest of us dealing with this bullshit world. You're on the home stretch now Grandma!!!! I Love you, & See you soon!!!