AngL's blog: "Random B Babble"

created on 11/09/2007 | http://fubar.com/random-b-babble/b152135

posted on 02/27/2008&nbs-08:00;@&nbs-08:00;10:02&nbs-08:00;pm

Unanswered Prayers...
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In many ways, I look to the past to help find my way through the present and into the future. The past is a doorway for me. Its my way of pushing my way through the trials and tests that life has for me. I always love looking at life from different angles and looking from outside that box. I may not always see what life has in store or what the intention was of something, but I try. :) In my past, I have prayed for things to go a certain way in my life. And time and time again, even as recent as several months ago, things never went that way. I remember feeling that when I fell in love, that that was all that I wanted. I wanted it to be my everything (minus my kids who are number 1 always). I tried to make it that way and then things didn't quite work out that way. It tore me up inside. Tore my heart into millions of pieces and I will never forget the feelings that went through me after all of that. I remember saying that I would never fall in love again because of the pain. That I would never look for another relationship or set myself up to be hurt again. With all that being said... I am thankful that some prayers go... "unanswered". Had things not worked out wrong for me (wrong at the time) and had things not played out as they had, I would have never met the man that makes me feel so happy, so wanted and desired, so warm, so loved... he is an awesome man... and he is "MINE"!!! I am sorry that things didn't go as planned... planned for my past loved ones and myself... but life has its way of doing things that we may never quite understand why to make sure things happen as they should. To the man that I loved... and wanted to be with so badly, I am thankful for a friendship that could be salvaged from our past, and saddened that things didn't quite work out as planned or wanted for the both of us, and to the man that I love... I am thankful for our paths crossing at the right time. Know that I am yours. :) With all this babbling... only a few will understand the whole meaning behind this. This blushy randomness babble... is just from my heart, in a time that I know I can smile and face the world and all the mountains and valleys it has to offer. To those that don't quite know where this came from or where it will go... you had to be there!!! ;) With love to All!!!! ~AngL~