lipsticknguns's blog: "twisted reality"

numb to the inside out layed across the floor as if a corpse has replaced thy soul dead to the world yet not new to the dead reality is surfacing and i begin to relize who is this girl that everyone knows so well yet dont really know at all as i lay there i dont even recognize my own self when you fake who you are for so long you tend to believe you are this person until your walls come crashing down your true colors show everyone see's them yet no one will confront you maybe its best this way for people to believe that you are something else than what you truly are more than likely they wont like who you are behind closed doors so i will continue to hide who i really am its worked so well so far so here i go with a smile yet all the lies are right there between my teeth yet people dont look that hard time to face the world with the absent reality -lipstick_n_guns to whom reads dont take everything i say to heart its just food for thought

thats how ive felt all day not quite sure if its from lack of sleep. complete confusion. w/e. but ive had this severely heavy feeling on my chest. pure emptiness. a big giant hole.i wish my head would clear soon cuz this blows lol. it feels like someone has died and the pain and suffering are holding me down crushing every little bit of life i have left in me. yet no one has died...maybe im dying on the inside yet im strong enough to keep a fake smile on the outside..idk im picking at my brain here lol...def shouldnt wander in there alone otherwise u get this crap that im writing..well tada theres a piece of my mind for the moment.