Turmoil
lost...
confused...
solace...
discontent...
apathetic...
at war with myself...
part of me misses...
part of me craves...
part of me desires...
part of me yearns...for your love
i thought you had forgotten me
moved on with your life
that i was a thing of the past
a phase...
a triumph...
a trophy...
but to myself i felt a failure
i thought you didn't care
that the love we shared was a farse
yet i knew in my heart that was far from the truth
when you left i knew you had to
that it was not because of me
you wanted a better life...
you had to get away...
so who am i to stop you?
but no longer having your warm body wrapped around mine
put terrible thoughts in my head
i kept blaming myself for your absence
did i not keep you happy?
satisfy your every need?
want?
desire?
if i'd done something differently you still be here?
holding me?
kissing me?
caressing me?
loving me?
we'd be married today
probably with kids, what you think of that?
and now you're calling once again…
my heart is filled with contentment
could you the one i'm destined to be with?
our conversations are still the same
we know what each other is thinking
able to finish each other's sentences
our personalities just click
you want me back...
another chance...
is this a dream?
it is it's as if my dreams were coming true
the Lord has answered my prayer...
for something i've wanted for years…
that something is you
i miss you
i want you
i need you
i love you
