if you have never been in a state mental institution let me tell what to expect from my nightmares.
what brought you here asked one attendant?
tell them anything cause they will ask you over and over and over.
7 times I told my story about being slipped a mickey.
Can I leave? ................wait..............wait............wait.............
here take this (pill)
now here is where you have reached a cross road if you take it you are compliant and will suffer from its effects if you do not and say no that is an act of defiance and you will be considered a threat or hostile. so you are faced with comitment or a week of observation renewable by a judge. If you were not diagnosed with a serious mental illness before you are now and the nurses and bouncers (security) will be in to administer your medicine.
hours may go by before you notice the affects of the drug if you never had it before. Soon your tongue will start to swell in your throat your neck will twist as you choke into unconciousness a seizure will start usually a gran mall seizure.
When the nurse gets off their ass they will shoot you with cogentin a anti-parkinsonian drug to stop the "side Effect".
you are now ready to be treated. This horrified young person I was at that time met shortly with the doctor and was asked some tripped up questions.I have replayed it in my sleep over and over for 35 years now.
this reaction caused the chemical imbalance you now have...............
it is irreversible......................................
and you may be informed you will be on medicines the rest of your life.
with all that in mind you are faced with a violation of human rights known only to the Psychiatric wards all over the world.
If you have not already been it is usually first all your belongings are taken away the longer your stay the less likely you will ever see that stuff again they are vaued and you are given some papers to explain you (lack of) rights.you may or not be told what you are being treated for either major depression, skitzophrenia, or manic depression for a long time but which style of drugs may ellude to that via your new menu of treatment options.
The rest of the treatment consists of neglect and immature groups that just talk or make noise, art therapy is your treat and your appearance will change from weight gain or involuntary muscle movements.(Twitching)
every mannerism you ever had is evaluated and diagnosed
you are being broken down
if depression did not start yet you will be evaluated for it.
your life is now under the decisions of doctors and judges social workers and advocates.
they come and go like water over a dam, often escorted by a herd of patients wanting their attention.
if you can focus on what to say during your weekly five minute doctor visit he will increase or decrease your medicines and offer you other ones.
now with this awful fear of dying it seems like the best option sometime and I envy those who had the guts to take their own life. selfish or not permanent or not their is no recourse there is no justice you are disabled a now in poverty on federal welfare known as social security or supplimental insurance and the hospital may be the best place you will be in.
Money is your only advocate and on drugs you cant make any.
welcome to my nightmare
fred
