He cares for me. I know this. He says he loves me. I know this. I love him too. He is my best friend. You know the story, if you read my MUM entitled "rightVSwrong" dated February 13th:
I'm single again. I told him I want us to be friends. He's my best friend. I told him I can't be with him right now because I have to figure out who I am. I told him I need to get to know me to know what it is I want. I told him I want to be friends and he was finding every which way he could to hurt my feelings, including saying "All you bitches are the same." and "Now I can ask my coworker out!" and I realize..... he is trying to hurt me back, but I couldn't lie to him and be like "I'm positive I'm in love with you" cos I've never been in love before! I didn't say there isn't a possibility of us becoming more than friends in the future. I said we have too strong of a bond NOT to be in eachother's lives. Am I wrong for being honest? Am I wrong for wanting my space? Am I wrong for telling him we can only be friends now?!
So we're talking on the phone today and he says I don't seem like I feel badly about how I hurt him. He says to me that I am lacking emotion. He says things like "I should just go out out on a date" and "You made a dumbass decision" to see what my reaction will be. I get mad because I don't want to lose him if he is my soul mate, but yet... I feel it's right for me to need to focus on finding myself. I don't want to lose him. I care about him a lot and I have no idea what we will be when we meet face to face after I've found myself. My question is, it is okay for him to make me cry over and over about this?
Yes or no? Advice please.
