Apparently, my relationship status change is suddenly the talk of my friends...
We need to have a talk :D
so rather than 1 on 1 this, i tell you, and you can comment your thoughts, opinions, feelings, whatever...
As many many many of you know, Adam and I went through a very rough patch. We broke up. There were a lot of problems.... we're only been together about 8 months, but, yes we were engaged... still are, but that part is to come.
Adam is a very unique person... in ways you will never understand... he is truly my soul-mate. He bonds with me on a level I will never be able to explain in mere words... he also is a pain in my ass. I clean up after him, and cook for him, and wait on him hand and foot damn near... with no real appreciation. Those of you who TRULY know me, know why that is insane. I do not clean, I love cooking, but I don't clean. I'm a control freak, and I expect people to kiss my ass. But, I realized, to make a real relationship work, both people have to give some and take some. It seems recently, Adam has been taking a lot more than giving.
So, a week ago, Dennis (my ex husband) took the girls for the weekend. I thought, wow, this will be the perfect time for some 1 on 1 alone time to hang out... NOPE... He went drinking, and didn't even think to invite me... after complaining how tired he was and how he just wanted to get home... I was pissed. I spent ALL DAY Saturday cleaning.... like spotless in depth cleaning... THAT is how pissed I was. He sat and played that damn Playstation 3 all day... a lot of other stuff happened, that isn't really relevant, just to say it got worse... we had a huge fight. Adam never talks to me... about things that bother him, how he feels, nothing. He lies, and hides STUPID things... things that i would never in a million years be mad about... yet he lies and hides them. I live with the guy, so i KNOW he isn't doing anyone of anything behind my back, but, it makes me wonder, ya know?
Well, Monday we broke up. I got plastered... Tuesday we talked some, and I got even more plastered... and he came to get me, because I was that damn drunk... we've talked, A LOT.... we want this to work. We truly love each other... we just have A LOT Of work to do... A LOT...
I may quite possibly be pregnant... W I still haven't started. my boobs hurt, I'm peeing a lot... i have some other problems you don't even want to KNOW about... I'm throwing up... Soooo, I'm fairly sure I'm pregnant... But, my pee test still shows negative... I keep reading about how it's fairly common for a pee test to not show positive the first day you miss your period, so I'm going to give it another week, or I may go in for a blood test, but I've been pregnant enough I know how my body is when I'm pregnant. I questioned it at first, because there were no other signs, but now with the throwing up and the boobs hurting thing... I'm almost certain I am... unless I have breast cancer lol... So... yeah...
And of course, Adam is happy as hell about the possible pregnancy. But we don't want to get back together because of that... we want it to be because we love each other and we want to be together...
I changed my status back, because I am sick of explaining to pervy assholes why i don't want to see their cock, have cyber sex with them, or meet them to fuck, or whatever other crazy nasty shit these psychopaths come up with, and why I do have a boyfriend, but I don't, how it's complicated... So.... Yes, I plan to marry Adam. But, YES, things are complicated right now...
So, keep me, him, us, my children, and my possible new little addition in your prayers... If you're reading this, it means you're a true friend of mine, and I thank you for that!!! Much love!!
