I look around me, Looking hard. So much happens in so few short years your really here. No I haven't been on this world very long. Most would say I dont really know what I'm talking about. Suppose that could be true.
I look at those around me though, I wonder........do they really know anything themselves. Or just foolings oneself?
Or are we just this jumbled mess put on this earth to walk blindly into shadows. The un-known. The abass. People live because they know they will die. At some point. Most people always view it as far off in the furture. Just so they never really have to face it. Most people are too scared.
When faced with death, people turn and run. Always afraid they didn't live life as they were ment too. Afraid they will end up in hell over going into His arms again, for how they lived thier life. If there is such a thing as heaven or hell. Or is it just something to believe there is to make ones self feel better about Death? Does Death really force people to live?
We have 24 year olds dieing of heart attacks.......Nobody believes it can happen to them. Its always some distance thing to take place in thier life.
I see sometimes more pain then there is happiness.
Is pain better to feel, then to feel nothing at all in life? Is it better to feel and know you were somewhat alive but really didn't life your life?
I see my friends hurt there friends, by ignoring them, casting them aside for other people, men women.Just set out to lie and hurt one another, knowing full well what they are doing to another person, another human. People end up caring for people that really dont care back, Dont care what happens to you. Your just something in there life that is expendable, useable. Easy to discard once they feel you have served what need or want or purpose they think you was there for. Once they had there fill. Never taking into consideration the others feelings. Yet get very upset when there feelings are not taken into consideration and raise 9 kinds of hell over it and see too it that people know they should be on pedistool to be special far above anyone eles. Always to come first. But when you need them they dont see fit to be there unless it suits them. People reaching out to each other, rejecting. Peoples own familys will do this to them, people who are suppose to love you uncondionally, from the time your born. Sometimes familys are worse to each other then anyone eles in the world. I see people fall in love with people they never abtain, but hold on to hope that in some distance dream, so whisper in the wind, that they will get a few stolen moments, kisses in time with this person, but all along knowing this person is ment to share there heart, life, body n soul, every min with. They hold on to hope, even though watching this person go on, even knowing they love to some degree and they are your best friend....for years n years. All the time aching knowing you aren't able to ever truely touch that person, but that someone eles is ment too.
Your heart trying to hide the truth from you, trying to believe, to hope that maybe just maybe things will change and that person was actually ment to be with you. Having to face in the end, that you may be able to have them as your best friend, but never as your love, the person you wake up with, the person you see everyday, the person you call to find out what you want for dinner, the romantic evenings, the laying in each others arms embracing the love you share. Feeling your heart break every day for weeks with this realization. Wondering why. Why life does that. Why does one human knowing the truth in the back of there mind still continue to fall for someone know they can't have. Why torture ones self.
Said life is ment to be lived for love, specially the love with the special someone you want to give all your heart too, to be loved in return. Sometimes to be numb would be divine. In all honesty.
