how am i doin?
nope im not ok..
ya i smile...
just so you will go away
how am i feelin..
pretty foggy and blue
hate waking up
fuck i hate sleeping too
tired of hoping
yup tired of stress
tired of wishing
tired of this mess
tired of laughin
when all i want to do is cry
im tired of questions
fuck im tired of asking why?
tired of loving
and tired of pain
fuck im tired of dreaming
just to stay sane
tired of watching
im tired of you
im tired of life
i wish it were thru
a coward i am
thats all as you see
cross my fingers for balls
so i can end me
priority 50
oh wait 51
i been standing in line
but another has come
peacefully waiting
but no patience you say?
i been giving and giving..
must have given em all away
giving.. i gave you..
i gave all that i could
and you took and you took
what now im no good?
space a you asked for
a lil trust and some peace
as if i had you captive
or on a fuckn leash
youdo as you want
and go where you please
i even left before you asked
i put aside me
i sat and sat quiet
no questions to ask
but you took advantage
you took it quite fast
and now i sit crying
and wait where are you?
this ex or that one
and tonight there is new...
im just being mean
oh wait you said "dum"
im sorry i cant hear you
my senses are numb
now my turn for questions
its my turn to ask
do you really give a fuck
or was it first reaction to ask?
do you care how im doing?
have i once crossed your mind?
do you care how i feel?
wait you just cant find time,
notime for the nothing
its all for the rest
i wear my heart on my sleeve
since it was torn from my chest
my stupidity stained me
its appearant to see
cuz at the end of my anger
its still you im missing....
