Life at times hit's a dead end and you feel as if theres nothing left to do, and no where else to go. .. . right? Well thats when most people give up and say fuck it istead of turning around and going the other way. Some people think there worthless and will never amount to anything and I have to say I say that about my self and alot of people hate it. I see my self as nothing but a fuck up in life and thats all I'll ever see my self as. If I would have had a better life and I wasent so confused on alot of things. .. . then maybe I wouldent feel this way.. .. but I do, and I dont want to and I'm trying so hard not to feel this way. ... . but I cant help it. It's something I have felt for many years and many more years to come. I wish it would go away. .. .but it wont. .. not until I see it fit to. Not until I prove my family wrong that I'm not a worthless piece of shit like they say, and think I am. .. .cause in all honestly im not but something keepts telling me I am. .And I dont know what it is . .. .But it keeps telling me that. So. .in all honety. . our life is what we chose it to be. weather it be happy and fullfilling or depressing and worthless.. . .we make our own lives and chose our own destinations. . .and I have chosen mine.. .and am trying to change it but everytime I get close to changing it I feel it switch, and a new task dawns upon me. .And it gets harder and hearder everytime. ..
