Just wanted to bitch for a minute . how come when u try to be everything for some one they don't want you , but when u treat them like shit they love you to deth . My dad use to have a saying "don't take my kindness for weekness " i think that some people take kindness as weakness i don't know some times i just give up on humantiy . i know when i was a soldier you could bet on the guy next to you when u ask him for his help he was there no questions asked , but in the civialian world you can't count on many people there are a select few you can trust in and then it's only so much you can trust them with . i guess it's what they ment by shell shock or something . i just think i need to get back in the army and get over all this bs ok just wanted to vent.