i just been doin a lot of thinking about everything lately and im not tryin to bitch or to whine i just cant figure these things out... i just been tryin to figure out why i have this huge emptiness and feeling of guilt and remorse... i know i did some bad things to a certain someone but i know th mistakes i made and wont do them again but why do i feel so fuckin shitty??? i got the greatest bunch of friends a guy could have and the one that matters the most is the girl i hurt so badly.... i just cant get over this feeling of emptiness i dont know what to do or anything about it!! i go to bed at night still crying every night holding onto my most prized possesion a white friggin piece of fabric...... it makes it a little easier but for real its been like month why cant i just get over it??? i mean shit i know i deserve it but fuck not like this..... someone help anyone im at a lss of what to do about it all and im about to break down cuz i try and hide my true emotions and feelings cuz they dont do any good just get me into more trouble.............
