juggalo187's blog: "just thoughts"

I miss the touch of your hand in mine. Your love warms me like the morning sun shine. I miss your breath on my ear as we embrace. I miss the softness of your cheek when I touch your face. I miss the air we exchange when we kiss. Holding you tightly in my arms is what I miss. I close my eyes and I feel your love raining down on me. I open them and I tear when I realize you are not near. -------------------------------------------------- You haunt my mind everyday and night, i try to fight but there is no use, to fight it would be like fighting the sun from rising, fighting the rain from falling, or fighting the wind from blowing, cant happen, i miss your touch, i miss your smile, i miss your smell, most of all i miss you, i miss the days and the nights we had, the future we talked about and the past we put behind us, without you my future has become my past and to put that behind me is the hardest thing to do. ------- These moments in time are yours, These two moments are your to keep. Treasure them For we must each go along our own paths, You to your destiny, I to my emptiness. The dreams I dream of you, As I lay awake at night. Tears flowing down my face, As I think of our parting, And reminisce our love. But always remember, That I am here, I am here, I am here in your every beginning. Our love cannot be forgotten For I am here, I am here, Hiding it from you.

I feel as though my heart lay bleeding On a countertop. The pain is like a flooded scream That cannot, will not stop. I cannot live, I cannot breathe; Pain is all I do. I cannot think how I can be Long living without you. Ah, God! I want you back so bad That I would gladly die To hold you in my arms again And not care how or why; To hold you in my arms again And tell you of my love, And then go gladly back to dust Should I your heart not move. this is kinda old sorry about the emo-ness!

i just been doin a lot of thinking about everything lately and im not tryin to bitch or to whine i just cant figure these things out... i just been tryin to figure out why i have this huge emptiness and feeling of guilt and remorse... i know i did some bad things to a certain someone but i know th mistakes i made and wont do them again but why do i feel so fuckin shitty??? i got the greatest bunch of friends a guy could have and the one that matters the most is the girl i hurt so badly.... i just cant get over this feeling of emptiness i dont know what to do or anything about it!! i go to bed at night still crying every night holding onto my most prized possesion a white friggin piece of fabric...... it makes it a little easier but for real its been like month why cant i just get over it??? i mean shit i know i deserve it but fuck not like this..... someone help anyone im at a lss of what to do about it all and im about to break down cuz i try and hide my true emotions and feelings cuz they dont do any good just get me into more trouble.............