Psychopathic Juggalette's blog: "Thinking aloud"

We recently found out that my sister is pregnant!!! Which, last month I bought her a baby shower gift and she could not figure out why I was buying one so soon. Now, maybe she will believe me when I say something will happen. LOL. But we are all excited as this is the first grandchild for my mother. I am, however, very nervous because shes a huge worrywart and stresses over everything. I think I may feel sorry for the child even, seeing how she is no fun for fear of the kids getting hurt. Yes, even to learn to walk she freaks out about everything. So we will see how this goes.

So here I am in many situations and none of them looking that great. I am trying what I can to make it the best for me and here everyone still yells at me. I thought I have been trying to take care of myself and make the best choice that I can from my experience and advice from others. Yet, here I feel I can not do much right still and I should distance myself from others. I am only working ten hours at one job and needed more income and decided to get another job at night on top of the first one and classes. I can work up to 40 hours a week through the second job, but i only want 20 because of the course load I have. I had a fear of getting fired from my first job because right now, I am at a stage where I am sick most morning and late night, making it hard to go to my job and she was not responding to me, but after speaking to her superior, they said just come in Thursday and there will be no problems. Great, so how to tell your body not to be sick on Thursday. So now here I am, alone and all my friends mad at me and too many emotions running through mym ind and not sure which way is up anymore.

So I spent 5 weeks in Mexico at the University of Guadalajara and I came back home. Found it a little funny when I went places and started to speak spanish and not even realize it til i noticed the funny looks on faces. Never knew how much I would miss being able to walk up to someone and speak spanish and get my ideas across. Now I can not wait til I can find people on here that can speak to me in spanish and others in my town or even til I head back to Mexico!!!