Psychopathic Juggalette's blog: "another bad day"

Well... So in other blog entries I have discussed a few misfortunes that have been happening with me. To continue with them, I recently had my birthday on the 3rd of November, woohoo, right? WRONG! I get a call from my doctor wanting to discuss the results of the biopsy that was taken. Normally, if you do not call back to ask what was found, they dont call you. This was different because they called til they reached me. Great I am thinking. Sure enough, the lady tells me that I am not in the woods right now, but I have to come back in for check ups often since the cells they have found are precancerous. More news still to come.... She continues saying that its almost a promise that I will get it, they just dont know how soon and want to see how fast this is growing. How nice I think. So do I tell my family or just let it go and pretend nothing is wrong at all, after all.. there are people in worse shape than I am in and I do not have cancer yet. So just another bad day with many after that to follow, just do not feel that those problems are anywhere worth writing down and letting others read those. Best of wishes to anyone who does read to this point.

So.. I have been having female problems for a while. Nothing new here. But this time my doctor is flipping out and testing me for god knows what all the names of the tests are. I am missing almost every friday and monday of school to go in for more testing and visits so one teacher said i have no respect for his class and said i will fail his class no matter what. Well, so far, I have come back negative for any stds which I knew would happen but its nice to have paper to prove it you know. Then they thought I was pregnant, Yeah right I say. Sure enough, the test is negative as well. So she thinks of the next best thing, an ultra sound. They discover they can not see my ovaries and not sure why I am having such severe pains and lack of my period for a few months. They send me to another doctor who thinks that I got some bacterial infection from staying in Mexico all summer, well most of it. Not to mention I did end up staying in the hospital while in Mexico as well. So here is why today is another bad day. They did a procedure on me which is not common for someone my age. They found growths in me that are as they say, cancerous. They did not say for sure that I have cancer, which makes me feel better, but they said its a high chance that one groeth removed could be so they want other samples to take a biopsy and make sure things are fine and to call back in 7 days for the results. So.. great day aye?

Soo.. here it is, yet another day in my life. This is one of the only places I have to speak some of what is going on, so here I go. My sister stays in my room every Wed night and I asked her to stay Monday night as well because we have to share a car. I need to tutor at a school for 15 hours and need the car monday or tuesday morning. she told me i was out of my mind and that she is not staying another night. I talked to our mom and told her the situation and since my sister will not work more hours and spend all her boyfriends money and now she can not repair her car, that my mom agrees on sharing the car so I can tutor and not fail my class. My sister said mom talks a lot of shit because she wont stay. Then we found out another four people are pregnant today that are in the family, and so when I told my sister that I was sick from the flu, she told me that it could be because I was pregnant too. I told her I was not my cousin, not really meaning anything mean by it either, and she continues by telling me accidents happen. Yes, so she really doesnt know my situation or what I am going through, little does she know that an accident could be happening. And.. little does anyone know that the guy is an asshole and wants me out of his life and thinks I am some whore. Yeah, but choice on my part. So now I have to wait... 3 days to find out if I am and I hate that my sister is being a bitch and causing more drama with me and trying to make it so I am.. lol. she cant really do that, but she sure the hell can jynx it. But I can almost promise on my life that I am not and there is nothing to worry about but me hurting my lovely sister.. which I will only do in my dreams.. btw.. Will never lay a hand on her in real life, thats my blood.. Can not even kill bugs or spiders.. I know I know im a wimp, its ok. So that is some of the problems, I will leave out work, financial aid, fake friends, family, and classes. I am sure there is more and more to come.