i have been asking myself recently what is life supposed to be like is there some secret to how all this works because i cant seem to get somethings right and i wonder if its me or is it everyone else i seem to keep chasing certain things that i cant seem to grasp and the more i chase the more it seems to elude me i wonder if its just the chase that seems to keep me doing it or maybe because its easy that way i know i wont catch it so why not chase and ask dumb ass questions as to why i dont catch it lol i wonder if that is what things are about chasing what you cant have because once in a while you get it but then you realize the chase wasnt worth it anyways and why do we always do things the hard way so as i sit and get in touch with more of my feelings and try to understand why people do the things they do i am gonna just keep being honest about what i feel even if i dont understand what it is or how life is supposed to work cause if it was easy i wouldnt be nearly as much fun as i am now
