i have been asking myself why i keep coming here and i cant really find the answer i mean there is nothing wrong with this site but too many people are fake on here they cry to get attention and i just cant stand it i mean i dont care about ratings and well i dont mind meeting new people hell there are a few on here i like so thats been a good thing and i am working on my people skills cause quite frankly most of you suck ass and most people forget that fact that some people do like being real and taken seriously i try to be on the same page with peoples feelings treat them with respect and be a friend but the fact of the matter is people use each other to make them feel good them go away when they get what they need and maybe thats what i am doing i am trying to be better than most people are but i am just as guilty but i wanted something more i wanted to find something that seems to elude me repeatedly and that is my emotions i feel hate and anger and all the negative stuff but i cant seem to figure out how to open up the other stuff and let it stay out but maybe the reality is that i am all messed up and need to fix whats inside me first before i can embrace those feelings i want and need to have and thats the problem i am trying to make them work forcing them but we will see
